Naturally Demanding
Chapter Seven
"John, why the long face, you have just been used as a toilet by your
Goddess? Was it THAT bad? You were supposed to enjoy it. It was my
ultimate gift to you. You were proving your love for me." She asked
with her face all wrinkled.
I later learned that was her frown. The corners of her mouth still went
up instead of down.
"You know I love you. Go wash your mouth really good, come back and kiss
my pussy. John, I don't understand. You look so sad. You should be very
happy. You are not having second thoughts are you? I would just die."
I did not tell him but My Dad and Uncle believe this medical prepration
that John has began is irreversible. I did not tell him that. :) If he
really intended to serve the rest of his life as my toilet, what
difference could it possibly make. I can hardly keep from giggling.
They are sure after a few dose of this medicine he has to eat shit and
drink piss to live. They believe there may well be other enormous
benefits too! We will feed him very well. (g)
"No Goddess, no second thoughts," John said. "If I had them they would
all be about my love for you, just like my first thoughts. You are to
beautiful to be true, I am the luckiest guy in the world. If I forget
it for a second, you have my permission to nibble!
He smiled at me when he was saying these things. I went to the cabinet
and got his second dose. I also got the two sringes. It was time for
his two shots that he will receive twice a day for a week. I smiled
too but for a different reason. I still can not believe this guy.
He is willingly giving his life to me just because I am beautiful.
I will take it to, but over a very long time. I get so hot when I
have these thoughts!
I told him,"Silly boy, you were worrying me! Hurry and lets get back
to the bed, and yes, I am going to nibble! After your acting like you
were unhappy with being my toilet, I have a lot of nibbles coming.
If you don't act happier when I feed you, I may just nibble you all
up! Do you want to be nibbled all up, john? (g) I would miss you
terribly. But I would have fun nibbling! (g) Here let me give you
these shots. They are necessary to keep you well and healthy with
your new diet!"
I thought about what she said. Although she giggled all the time
she was talking about nibbling, I think she could do that. She
gets a lot of sexual enjoyment from giving me pain. I washed my
mouth out good, brushed my teeth, then used the mouthwash again.
I hope my mouth did not stink like her shit. I could not smell it
anymore, but I may be used to it.
I went back to her, knelt down with my left hand extended to her,
and kissed her beautiful lips. I buried my nose in her blonde bush
and inhaled deeply. I had her pubes in my nose tickling me. I
loved her more then could ever be put in words. I let her give me
the shots. I trusted her completely. No matter what she does to me,
when I look into her eyes I can tell I mean a lot to her. I know
the shots are necessary for my health. Her dad is a Doctor. Still
I can not help but wonder what they will do to me and if there are
any side effects. I have never heard of any such medication. I will
attempt to hide my concern from her. I do not want to disappoint my
beautiful Goddess Jennifer.
"I am sorry Goddess, you are right, you do have lots of nibbles
coming. Nibble all you want, I will lick your pretty pussy."
With that I started playing with her pussy. I felt her breath just
a second before the pain. She would bite so slowly, get to the point
of removal and hold that position. She was driving me out of my mind
with pain. I concentrated on licking and worshipping her pussy all
I could. She was hurting me so much. Each time she would remove a
little piece of skin she would say, "Hold your hand out." She would
put the skin in my hand. I lost count. Between her pussy in my face
and all the pain from her teeth, I could not keep count. It did not
matter anyway. What makes the difference if she bites me once or a
thousand. I belong to her. All I could think of was how beautiful
she was, her deep blue eyes, her gorgeous tits, and that ass, true
perfection. I withstood the pain and licked her pussy. Her cum taste
even better than before. Her feminine aroma was overpowering. I
found myself looking forward to when she would use me as her toilet
again. By being her toilet I would be proving my devotion to her.
"Have you suffered enough for now or are you a masochist? Look at
your finger."
I looked at it. All the skin was missing from the top of my finger
from the knuckle on my hand to the main knuckle on my finger. It
really hurt. My hand was trembling and I could not hold it still.
"I am not going to tell you that I am sorry, john. Goddesses never
appologize. I know you are in pain. Pain is something you learn to live
with here. It is just part of being with us.
She said that like she was scolding a child. The "us" came out as a hiss.
I held up my left hand to her.
"Goddess nibble some more if you want. Nibble until you are happy.
I can stand the pain from your teeth much easier than I can stand the
pain from your anger."
She looked at me with her mouth tightly closed, and said, OK", without
opening her mouth, just through her teeth. I was not even sure why she
was angry. But my finger and I paid dearly. She was down to the next
knuckle before she started to giggle between nibbles. She quit. My
pain was intense. Surely this was worse than a burn that had removed the
first layer of skin. Jennifer was playful. She made no mention of my
finger. She had left the skin on my knuckle though.
"How is the laundry coming slave?" She giggled.
"I am drying the last load now." I answered
"I am hungry! All this using you has made me hungry. You said you
cooked, do you do burgers on the grill?"
"Yeah, I would enjoy fixing your food. Anything to please a Goddess."
Come I will show you where everything is. Goddesses do not cook, they
sizzle!" She said with a giggle.
She was bouncy, animated, happy, and extremely sexy. She showed me
where stuff was and I fixed hamburgers. The heat from the fire burned
my raw skin. Jennifer kept telling me to use my left hand to turn the
burgers. She knew what the heat was doing to my raw skin. She was
playing her, "Goddess Games". She was very adept at playing Goddess
Games. I think I just endured all that nibbling because she like
showing off her power. She knows I can refuse her nothing so she
delights in seeing me in pain just because I am enduring it for her.
The burgers were very good, she was surprised. She advised me not
to eat any. She said real food and the natural food she had fed
me did not mix well. I ate one though. She also said my diet should
consist of all natural food for the future. I knew what,
"natural food", was. It taste badly and smelled a lot worse.
"I love you for your culinary arts too, she giggled. I find something
new to love you for all the time."
"The difference is, you love me for all the things I do for you.
I am deeply in love with you."
"I know that slave! I am simply irresistible to you. That is why I
own you. (g) It is what you wanted, to serve me, you said so. Are
you sure there are no second thoughts. It would not be good for you
to change your mind. Your medication is complicated. My dad will
explain it to you. You have to continue with it. I do not know how
to treat you nor with what if you changed your mind."
She had concerned a look on her face. But I already know her well
enough to know the look meant nothing. She could have on any face
she chose. She was in to "faces". She did them all on command.
"Goddess, I fully made my mind up. I want to serve you for the rest
of my life. Please never concern your self about my loyalty. Use me
anyway you want and I will always be ready for more use by you. Jennifer,
you are what I have always dreamed of, no my dreams never went that high,
how could they, I never dreamed anything like you existed. I will tell
you why I looked sad. I was looking into the future when your using me
was purely automatic. I was nothing to you, just something to use.
You felt nothing for me except contempt for me.
"John, how could you think such a thing? That is awful! I have done
nothing to cause you to have such thouths. I know I haven't! Hey,
you knew I planned to do stuff to you, but I do it in love. I love
my portable john!" (g)
"No, but while you were using me as your toilet, you were on the phone.
You gave an order for me to lick you, and hardly missed a word on the
phone."
"You are to sensitive! Get use to it. I talk on the phone a lot while
I use the toilet. I have told you about being sensitive! I thought you
were over that already. I was talking to one of my girlfriends, and of
course I pressed this button, see, she could not hear me. It doesn't
even click. She never knew I said anything. John you can not do this
to me. That is so uncool. That is not the way Goddesses are treated.
Don't do that again. I'm glad no one knows how you treated me. That
would be so embarassing to me. I am your Goddess, john. I can do no
wrong in your eyes. If you see any wrong doing by me, I simply am not
your Goddess. If I am not your Goddess, I am not a Goddess at all.
Don't you see. Don't you remember how excited I was at being your
Goddess? You were thinking of taking that from me. No one has that
right, john, no one. If I told my girlfriend, hey,know john, well
he is one. Would you like to come over and take a crap in his mouth?
That would be my right. You had best get use to it. Like I am going
to change!"
"I am so sorry Jennifer, I just never thought about it like that. You
are right of course. I am just insecure. If I ever do anything like
that again, do anything to me you want, but get my attention. I want
to serve you, more then I have ever wanted anything in my life. I
wanted to be your slave when I first saw you, but since I have been
your toilet, well, I can not explain it. I have the need to be used
by you."
"OK, we will leave it like that, but john, your punishment will be severe.
If my parents had seen that, I don't know what they would have done. Don't
ever do that again, that is the worse thing you can do. It is the same as
disobeying me. John, I am alone with you right now, I am vulnerable.
I am little, you are big and strong. I trust you. Just do not ever do
anything to cause me not to trust you. If I can not trust you, then you
are nothing to me. I had rather strap you to the table downstairs eat you
up, and tell my parents you begged me to, then have to tell them you no
longer wanted me for a Goddess."
I had never imagined what she just said. I was treating our relationship
to casually I guess. I don't know. I do know it will never happen again.
I think I convinced her of that. I felt so bad, I had really hurt my
Goddesses feelings. She was not acting, she was sincere. I was an ass
and did not even know it. It made no difference who she was talking or
who she tells. If she broadcast to the world that she took all of her
shits in my mouth, I have no right to care. I belong to her. I can say
only that her shit is very good and I love her eating it. I love her for
using me. Everything that comes from her body is sacred and I am the
luckiest guy in the world because she chose me to consume it. I really
must bare down and live totally for her every second. It is so easy to
get sidetracked and think of myself. I do not matter, only my Goddess
and her family matter. Please let me always remember that.
I told Jennifer I would rather be on that table and her eat me up, than
to ever make her sad. I told her that nothing about me mattered.
Everything about her mattered.
My stomach does not feel very good. Maybe the hamburger and her shit did
not mix very well. Perhaps I should not have had the hamburger.
I told her I had to go home and we had not even studied.
"NO, you can not leave me, you are staying here."
I explained about my grandma, I had to check on her. I told her my grandma
was not expected to live very long, she did not know me when I went to see
her. I told her I should be with my grandma. That look was coming on her
face. I had done it again. I was thinking of myself. I had best get my
priorities in order. There were no priorities! Jennifer was the one and
only. It was clear she meant for it to be that way too.
"May I use the phone, Goddess?"
"yes," she said, no smile, no giggle, no happy face.
I called the home, they said my grandma died an hour ago they were trying
to reach me. I explained this to Jennifer the best I could. I told her
I had already arranged for cremation. I had no living relatives. There
was a will to attend to. I asked her permission to handle it Monday. It
would be at 1:00.
"You go to class Monday. You go withdraw from school. I will pick you up at
your attorney's office."
"Withdraw from school!" I was surprised.
"Yes john, we need you here, there is a house and lawn to care for, five
people to care for. You have no time to go to school. You have no use for
school. You already know how to eat shit."
She was not very nice when she said that. Jennifer could be such a bitch.
No matter what she said, what she did, or how much it hurt, she did not
seem to care. She thought only of herself. I looked at her, she did not
look nice. She was giving me that look that cut me to the bone.
"John, you are so stupid! I know your only relative died. John you same
as said she died sometime ago. You knew it would happen any day, you knew
the sooner the better for her and for you. WE are your family, duh. You
now have five family members. Very alive, very active, and very demanding
family members!"
"Follow me."
She walked away, I followed her to the basement.
"Over there john."
She pointed to a cross.
"Give me your hand." she fastened it above my head to the cross.
"Now the other hand." She fastened it also.
She stepped away from me. I watched her pick up a whip. I pivoted on my
toes. The cross turned. I was stretched up and my toes is all that
touched the floor. It took effort to stop going in a circle.
"Please Goddess, Please, I am trying so hard to learn to serve you properly.
Please don't use that on me. I love you."
"Will you love me at the end of one hundred lashes? Will you love me when
all of the skin has been cut from your back with this whip? Will you love
me when I put on those boxing gloves and beat you until you pass out, bring
you to, and put a pin through your balls and pull you all over this room?
Will you still love me, john?"
"Yes, I will still love you Goddess and I will still want to serve you with
all my being. As long as I live, I will want you as my Goddess."
She looked at me and her expression begin softening. She stepped up on the
portable steps and unfastened my wrist. I fell down and kissed her feet.
I buried my face in her shorts and kissed her. She unfastened her shorts and
I started kissing her pussy. It was wet with cum. I could see cum on her
panties. I looked up and her face was a face of love. Did she ever intend
to do all that, or any of that to me? I could not tell. At least she was
not doing it now. I was very grateful for that. I showed how grateful I was
by the way I eat her pussy. She stradled my face and put her legs over my
shoulders. She put her nails in my neck. I gave her my best performance.
She gave me a tremendous amount of cum. Everytime I eat her I like her cum
more. Everything I do for her causes me to love her more. All the time I
think I could not possibly love her more, but I do. I know she is
brainwashing me, I know I am being trained by her to serve her without
question. She is training me to think of her and her wants all of the time.
I am being prepared for her use in the most extreme way. I have no doubt,
the other members of this family will be equally skilled, and I will be
trained to serve them in the most extreme ways possible. She was right, I
have no need for education. I have enough to do what I will be doing for
my lifetime. I am doing it again, I am thinking of me. I must quit doing
that. Only my Goddess matters.
My servicing her had become automatic. I was guilty of the very thing I
acused her of. She has that right. I do not. I will ask her to nibble
on my finger some more when she is through using me for her pleasure.
Perhaps nibbling on me will further her pleasure. And the pain will
teach me more about my responsibilities to my Goddess. My Goddess deserves
more pleasured because of my unthoughtfullness. My pain will provide her
that pleasure.
The way she was moving and moaning, my automatic mode must be pretty good.
She was certainly cumming alot. I will also ask her if she needs to pee when
she is finished and I have worshipped her lovely brown hole. How could I
ever think of anything except the pleasures of my Goddess.
She semmed to be really enjoying using me for her sexual release. I like
anything Jennifer uses me for, but this is my favorite. Her cum is
delicious. I can't get enough. I look forward to the arrival of three more
women to receive cum from. They will all be here in just one more day.
"Ohhh john, you are soooo good at that. I am so lucky to have found you.
I love you john! I love using you! I think I love your mouth and tongue
most of all! Ohhhh what pleasure you give me. More tongue john,"
Jennifer said as she dug her nails in and cut me again. The more pleasure
I gave Jennifer, the more pain she gave me. I will never complain about
the way she uses me again. Sometimes I would think, this is the one I will
not survive but she always lets me breathe befor I pass out. She is such
a sweet Goddess.
I was not going back to my house tonight. I was staying with my Goddess.
Jennifer would need the company of her slave. She would need to use me
and if I were lucky I would get to eat her a few more times tonight.
I hoped she planned to ride my face all night.
"Slave, come over here."
I crawled behind her, my eyes wathing that beautiful ass as it swayed closely
in front of me.
"Put your leg in here."
I complied immeadiately. She snapped the leg iron shut and locked it.
"The toilet is throught that door. Good night slave."
"Goddess, I thought you wanted me to stay so I could be with you."
I was surprised.
"I do, I want you right here. If I need your services or want to do something
to you, I know where you are. You are not going anywhere." She said in a
flippant voice and with a smile.
I watched her walk away. I had no right to say anything at all. I said it
anyway.
"I love you Jennifer."
She turned toward me.
"I know you do, john, you must. I have done a ton to you. That is one
thing we have in common. We come from social positions that are eons
apart. But we do have something in common. Both of us are in love
with me!" (g) You will love me more each day. I promise."
He ate that up! He is so stupid. He will love me more each day. I am
sure of that. He already worships me like I never thought possible
without the drug. The drugs will enhance those feelings. You have
seen a dog that his owner can kick and the dog will crawl to him?
Well that will be our relationship. I will do horrible things to him.
It is the reason I wanted him in the first place. Why would a lady
with my class and looks go with a nothing like that? He falls for
all of my looks, the concern in my voice. He is stupid and will be
used for what he was created for, a slave and toilet for a very
deserving and naturally demanding family.