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Hilda’s two Masters
part 2 of 13.
Obedient I put the
safety belt on and put my hands resting in my lap, as if they were prepared for
a new order.
They didn’t get
anymore order, then.
When
he stopped the car he stepped out of it and turned his back to my again. When he heard that I had opened and closed my
door he turned to the car and activated the remote-locking of the it and the car obediently answered him with a “Blipp”.
I wondered if the car
felt obedient like me.
He was suddenly so
nonchalant, but in an interest awakening way that my curiosity carried me away.
I followed him. His
whole performance, yes his whole being sent out dominance, something that I was
underfed with in the last weeks and as my whole mind longed for.
Yes, I was vulnerable in
my longing for Mats and his dominance. But in this there was more of me, as a
woman being taken care of and that someone paid attention to me and loved me.
He was outside of his outer
door and I had to half-run to catch up with him. I didn’t know if the
outer-door should automatically close after him and let me staying outside in
the night. I felt some kind of panic stream from inside of me.
In all my life I have
been following my heart, my feelings. If it went wrong I could easily defend
myself but not so easy if I followed my intellect.
“I just followed my
feeling, that’s it!”
Now my heart spoke
clearly to me:
“Follow him and see
what is happening!”
My God, I don’t even
know his name and I just follow as an apathetic fool.
But perhaps he doesn’t
know my name either, if not Elin had told him, that
is, added my thoughts.
No, he didn’t hold up
the door for me so I must throw myself forwards the last step to catch it
before it closed.
“Was he that
uninterested in me?”
Should I really follow
him if he wasn’t eager at all?
If I had been a proud
woman with out of submissive feelings and longing for dominance the answered
had been clear STOP!
My mind tried in suddenly
attack of fury that got me almost to turn, but my heart and curiosity wan that struggle.
When the door closed
behind me I heard a small tone, yes, it was probably night-locked.
My legs knew better
(it would become apparent) and the followed him upstairs.
I half-run the last
steps and kept up with him outside his outer door in the block of flats
(apartment house).
He unlocked it and
opened the door for me and I stepped inside.
Next shock! Would
there be more?
On the wall straight
ahead hang swords, long knifes anyway, and a very long whip that as a snake
coiled itself up. I think it was 2 meters (6 feet) long or more.
Mats had also a whip
that he used more as a symbol of his power. But it was small with a wooden
handle and a lot of straps of leather or rubber. At one occasion he had slapped me with it until I was red on my
bottom, but he had only used his right over me.
But WHO had I followed
home?
The door was now
closed behind me.
Was I secured here?
Elin knew him, so he must be OK. He also knew that
she was sub (submissive) because he so quickly had caught her message: “She is
like me, you know!”
Had he played with
her? I must ask her. I had NOT killed her, you know.
Would he kill me so OK
with me, I heard myself thinking and reflected of how foolish it sounded. I
don’t want to die.
- Com in here.
He called out from
inside the room and I obeyed.
The room was
tastefully furnished as if with a female touch. But it was also masculine arranged
with big and heavy leather armchairs and a big leather sofa in dark brown. The
table straight ahead gave me also a heavy impression; it had some kind of
grayish blue stone top. Perhaps synthetic material, I can’t see the different
anymore. Curtains and the table-cloth were tastefully and in the same nuance
and were in harmony with the rest of the room. My eyes attract to colors that
spoke to them.
A lot of potted plants
seemed well-managed and full of life. Such is not that usually in a single
man’s home.
I remember that he had
told me of a girl that had broken up with him, or did I imagine that?
Was there en woman
here? The question grab hold on something in side me.
- So you are sub?
He asked quite
frankly.
It came so suddenly,
so straight on, so manly insensitively, as it was just another daily question
to another person, not a deep and very private question.
- Yes.
I answered hesitant as
I didn’t really know if it was his business. But my heart told me that it was.
- OK, just so I know.
He answered.
I said something in a
squeaky voice, almost inaudible and I don’t even remember it now.
- Undress, now!
I heard the commanding
voice, which I had longed for in so long time. An intonation that didn’t asked
what I wanted, just took for granted that I was to obey. That voice that spoke
to the developing slave-girl inside of me.
I was chocked by the
finding that I was not chocked by
this chocking order to a girl he had just brought home.
In want of the chock I
decide to do as I was told.
I didn’t answer but my
hands started to grope for the buttons at my light-brown leather coat. I took
it of and returned to the hall and hang it up neatly on a hanger. All my
movements were slow and dragging in my uncertainty.
I return to the same
spot in the room, near the hall. My hands started to unbutton my light-brown
sheer material gown.
He smiled at me in an
encouragement way making my hands sliding my gown down over my shoulders and towards
the floor. I felt the indoor temperature chill my back, belly, behind and legs.
I folded neatly my
gown and put it on a stool beside me.
He wanted to see my
body and that was a good sign of his interest. Perhaps he only played
uninterested on the street and in the stair-well. But he did it with a manly
nonchalance that almost scared me away.
Somewhere in my sudden
feminine omniscient I felt that this man had something to offer me that would
surprise me.
It was clear to me
that he was dominant and that he assumed to be obeyed.
He nodded to me and my
hands went to my back and opened the hook to my bra and soon my breasts were
free from their shut-in feelings. Now I really felt the chili air to my almost
naked body.
I’m definitely not a
slut and I ought to be red in my face, but I wasn’t. It was his natural way
that affected me. Sometimes you don’t know yourself, how could you know others.
As Mats’s
slave-girl I had undressed in front of two men before, but this time was the
first in front of a complete stranger.
It felt nice in my
body, perhaps because I felt my strong obedience. I only did as he told me. He
was the one who steered the whole situation. He had ordered me to undress.
(Later he told me that
he with his “undress” only meant my coat, but the submissive part in me had
read it in a wider way. When he explained it to me I didn’t even felt ashamed.)
Now he knew that I was
sub and hopefully he also knew that I wasn’t a slut.
Yes, it felt good to
show my body for his approval in this way. I know I was supposed to feel
horrible, vulnerable and humiliated, but well I didn’t.
In stead I did in my
head a quick inventory of my body, that body now standing before him for his
inspection:
My hair is growing and
I know that people like my smile, my breasts are not too big and not too small
and are not too heavy, my butt has firm muscles, my waist is slim and my legs
are long and especially nice in high heels. Now was my calves hidden in my high
boots.
Why didn’t I take my
high heels instead, when I dressed at home?
I had thought about it, but didn’t think it would matter as I didn’t
want to go in the first place.
Now I had a pair of thin
briefs that didn’t give me much of cover, but they made a boundary to
nakedness.
He looked at me, still
smiling and raised his right eyebrow in a cute way and looked down at my fabric
covered private parts.
He didn’t say anything
so I didn’t know what he meant but my submissive part of my brain translated it
to:
“Take of your cover!”
My hands obeyed him
quickly and forced my last protection over my hips and over my thighs. I
quickly stepped out from them and bended over to collect them in my hand and
put them under my gown at the stool.
I felt totally naked
but find out that I still had my high boots on. The boots were in the same tint
as my gown and the coat.
It felt now rather
ridiculous to be totally naked except for the high boots. I bended to take them
off but he stopped me.
- Keep them on!
It was a clear and plain
order. He wanted them on. That’s it!
I stood with my hand
outside my thighs. I would rather be standing in the order-position, with my
legs apart, my hands behind my neck and breast out. It was in that position my
Master Mats had taught me to wait for further orders, but I didn’t know how
this stranger wanted me.
I remember that Mats
had read about that position and many more in “Anna38 diary” on the net. There she also taught that my eyes should be
at my Master in my attention.
He watched me and
again raised his eyebrow.
Directly and almost
automatically I raised my hand behind my neck, moved my legs apart and checked
that my elbows pointed out at my sides.
I felt my nakedness in
my skin.
In the same time as I
thought that this felt right and question my own behavior in a: “My God what am
I doing?”
This position, the
order position, was my plain way to show him (and myself) that he was now my
Master, for the night. In being my Master he also had the full responsibility
for my ordered actions. I didn’t even know his name.
But it also felt so
right and completely natural.
I followed my feelings
or a secret voice inside me and if it was all wrong then I could defend it in
front of
myself. In same way it was as if my body on its on
initiative obeyed his voice. Perhaps Mats’s training
of it had planted in reaction that was trigged by a manly voice.
I thought of my
behavior as if from a mature woman that had been slave all her life, but I had
been slave girl not more then four months and seen it developed in step, from
an ordinary girl to an obedient and submissive slave girl.
Almost as if he could
read my thoughts that I didn’t know his name he asked:
- You know how to
address me?
- Yes Master!
My answered was clear
and distinct. I looked him in his eyes as I was taugh
to do.
Whole my being knew
it. Yes, I have accepted him as my Master, it’s a case
of kill or cure. I didn’t really know if it was developed from my vulnerable situation
(in my longing for Mats) or something else inside of me. I hoped for it to be
my heart that was guiding me.
- In refrigerator
(icebox) there are some beers. Fetch one for me! You may have one yourself, if
you like.
It felt madly how easy
I fell into the role and now in front of a stranger. But it also tickled every
nerve in my body to act like naked slave-girl in front of the fully clothed
man.
- Yes Master!
It felt nice to
acknowledge his order and I went quickly out to the kitchen knowing that Mats
had expected of me to run (like Anna) but I thought it was enough, in a
half-way, to walk quickly. I noticed that there were not any curtains in the
kitchen and I could see other windows in the block of flats outside. I was
naked and I felt it if I didn’t cared. I was ordered to do this and I opened
the door to the refrigerator and took one beer.
I remember Mats voice
saying that a slave girl don’t eat when her Master does it, she is standing
beside of him and waiting on him.
I returned to him (now
quicker, as in a compromise between walk and run) with his beer. He sat in one
of the leather easy chairs and I kneeled and handed him the can. He took it,
opened it and started to drink.
When kneeling at his
feet I felt a hit of humiliation through my body, but it didn’t last for long.
In the same second
that he opened it with its “phtss” I felt that I
should have done that for him. Mats had never let such a mistake pass without
of criticism.
Was I on the road to
be a poorer slave girl?
A completely new and
unfamiliar thought run up in my head: “I hope that my new Master will train me
to be a super-slave-girl for him!”
I the same moment I
felt that my heart had decided for me to stay with this new Master – if he
wanted me of course. And if Mats still was refusing to take me back.
I was worry. Maybe I
was for him just a one-night-stand?
Am I a momentary
play-thing for men?
What if he already had
a woman?
I felt despondency
rise inside me. Why was I always forsaken when I thought I had found the right
man?
A flashing sick
thought rose up in my mind: “If his woman accepted it I could be his slave-girl
anyway!”
No, of course not!
Silly me!
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Translating
is a hard work and as a woman I’m driven by encouragement.
I
thank all those nice people who had taken their time to feed me.
/Cecilita
Cecilita