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Hilda’s two Masters
part 12 of 20
Foreword:
English is one of the meeting languages and that means that now days people with their
own different languages at their tongues meets in English with others.
It is of course
tempting for the genuine English people to not put efforts into learning a new
language themselves, as they always are served moderately understandable English.
I didn’t say lazily,
but more naturally. It is as easy as it is to forget that a foreigner who
speaks with a foreign accent also can have another, perhaps many more language
in his knowledge.
The great advantage
for everyone is the great variety of knowledge that is accessible to many.
Don’t laugh at
accents, be humble as we are!
I have four, except
English, that I still study.
/
Cecilita
//
Hilda:
I sat naked in the
easy chair and waited for him to act or give me an order.
He bended over me and
put one hand on my forehead and the other at the upper part of my stomach, but
he didn’t touch my breasts. I wouldn’t mind, they had liked to be touched.
- You will be
completely awake and clear in your head and you may think on anything you like.
I will reach your subconscious by my voice, for one, as a carrier-wave. It
brings my “signals” indirectly into your subconscious. If you want to listen
it’s OK for me, do as you want. I don’t want you to sleep.
-
Yes Master!”
I answered obediently
and almost awestruck, but didn’t know if I wanted to listen to his nice and
calm voice or have my own thoughts.
I didn’t need to
decide.
Suddenly I thought of
Mats and his play with me and how nice it felt when he was my Master. But also
how nice it was to be Master Micke’s slave-girl, as I
still am. It was some funny parallel-thoughts, which I never have had before. I
was surprised that I could think of two Masters at the same time and from
different times.
It felt almost as if I
had a basic Master.
I could remember my
feelings in details when I sucked on Mats. How carefully I treated his tool
with my lips and tongue, how I moved my head over it and pushed it down my
throat and also that it hurt a bit and I felt tensed in my throat in the
beginning, but soon it went so smoothly. It was if I had a tube downwards to my
stomach, as an extra vagina for my Master, which he could use at his will. My
gag-reflexes he had trained away long time ago, so they were gone now.
It felt so nice in my
whole body to think about this and what surprised me the most was that I
couldn’t only feel how it felt, but also remember scents and flavors and that I
could distinguish one taste from another.
It all felt like an
amazingly nice sex dream but I could steer it in this daydream. I could review
experiences, events, with scents and flavors, ticklish feelings and touches at
my own choice forwards and back as a video. I could also enjoy them in slow
motion and really feel the experiences. Perhaps the oddest thing was that I
could extract experience details and KEEP them, as when you put your video at
pause and then just enjoy that feeling.
I knew that this was impossible, but still I experienced it in
real-time.
I could see Him
standing there all the time and I was completely awake but it felt like a
wonderful and really wet dream.
So came another
feelings over me and it went indescribably nice, but in a new way. I got an
strong feeling of that all those experiences, scents in the beginning was an
initial phase as at the movie and now it was time for the feature picture. And
what a feature!
My whole body started
to feel, it was like every nerve fiber in my body were called to an meeting in
the same conference room and that I could experience it all and everything at
the same time. I wasn’t used to so many perceptions at the same time, but I
could surprisingly handle them all.
So suddenly I felt the
nerve fibers and sensory nerves in my vaginal muscles, it was like I could
separate every muscle fibers and muscular attachment. All began to contract and
retract and cause a so wonderful pleasure that I thought I shouldn’t be able to
percept it, but I did.
Otherwise, when it is
as its best with a gay, it is only ONE pleasure area I could feel and
concentrate to and hold on to. Now the pleasure signals splitter up from all
those thousands of nerve-cells and I could percept them all and at once in a
flashing way. It was as if the time of seconds had splitter down to ten or more
fractions of seconds, as if the time perception had slowed down and I could
enjoy it all, but in the same time. (It’s so difficult to explain in a foreign
language!)
As this wasn’t enough
of input to my poor brain and its delight-central-office I suddenly felt my
clitoris be so super-sensitive that I could feel the air around it and I’m
convinced that it looked up from its cover, as when I redraw the fore-skin from
my Masters cock. It felt like my clitoris started to move itself or was so
sensitive that it need not be touched. It was enough that I thought of it.
In all those thousands
of inputs I felt my tits starting to swell and also be mega-sensitive that even
they react from the air in the room. It developed pleasure that just didn’t
existed.
I felt all this
simultaneously and now started a new wonderful trial for my pleasure-centre.
All the input-signals
and delight sensations started to work together and wind upwards in an
unimaginable spiral up up and up.
- Breathe!
Even if I saw him
standing there all the time he was so unimportant to my mind and I heard his
voice from far away telling me to breathe and I felt disturbed in my pleasure
and wanted to scream: “Hell, I do!”.
But suddenly I understood that it was my Master and I had to obey him.
I could see the room
and Him and I felt that far away my lungs was taking a deep inhale, but I did
it only to obey Him. I had no time
for it. It was so indescribable and tremendous delightful that I had no room
for anything else than this wonderful input-signals and to hold on to them in
my brain.
As soon as I obeyed
him this wonderful world of pleasure returned and everything spin up wards
again together with all those unspeakable lovely signals. And now with more
delight than before.
Without of me know it,
my brain had been taught that if I obeyed, even if it felt difficult to do, the
delight would return, a hundredfold.
Something inside of me
had made that connection between obeying and those wonderful thrills.
It longed for several
seconds more and then it started to go down. And I thought or maybe I said it
loud:
-”Master, please give
me an order, what ever you want!
The rescue came.
- ORDER-POSITION!
I’m sure that my body,
never in my life, had changed position from sitting and to standing as
incredibly quickly as I did now. I wanted to feel the nice feelings again, to
any price at all. My brain or perhaps my subconscious had already put equals
sign between obey, obey quickly and get pleasure.
And I got my reward!
I stood in
order-position. My head was in a whirl by the quick raising for the first
seconds. But I felt that for every muscle-group that I stretched up to the
order-position, the pleasure swept over me as a hurricane. When I moved my legs
apart, slanted out my elbows, interlaced my finger behind my neck, got up to
tiptoes, opened up my mouth and sent out my tongue, I got one micro-kick for
every detail-motion. And the surprise
was that I could receive and enjoy all of it.
Standing up naked in
the room and in the order-position my body gave way for an orgasm, that I never
in my life even had been close to before. Not touching myself, as if my
clitoris touched itself by its own movements, I orgasm in seconds for seconds and
minutes for minutes and it didn’t go down, only up, up, up, up and up, more and
more for every detail correction I adjust my body into.
Orgasm in
standing-position naked at the floor it is absolutely madness, but it was so
breathtaking miraculous that the normally word pleasure lost it meaning. Time
was so unimportant when I stood there convulsing in never-ending wave after
wave, but I can say it lasted for long
time, splitter up in those fractions of seconds.
It was absolutely
heaven. No, much more than that. I remember the sentence from a girl: “A
Universe of delight!”
After that orgasmic
vibrates I could feel that my body was so close to a new orgasm. If he had
touched me I had gone off, again.
I have always been
blessed with great bodily orgasms
and for that I’m grateful, but the mental orgasm trigging up the bodily orgasm
was more than heavenly. My ordinary orgasm was nothing compared to this new feeling as it also prolonged my bodily
orgasm and splitter it down to micro-sensations that were mega in
themselves. My God!
I was completely full
of my own wanting to obey quickly to
get these pleasures back. I was not more foolish than I understood that my
obedience and this incredible delight were interlocked inside of my brain and
that He had, by some technique, implanted it there. Not that I knew when he did it and it didn’t
matter.
What I didn’t
understand in that moment was how I
was rewarded with this “impossible to comprehend” delightfully pleasure but my
brain had learned that the quicker I obeyed the quicker came the reward. It
certainly comes from my own inside.
He had called this
absolute Universe of pleasure, an entirely
private motivation to obey!
My God, obedience is
going to be my second name!
I can be anyone’s
slave-girl and slut for these delights!
But that was only my
spontaneous thoughts; my common sense hadn’t had its say yet.
//
When everything inside
of me had settle down He sat and explained all this, but he stressed that the
unimaginable delight was the drive factor. He ordered me back in the cold
leather chair when he talked.
He also told me my
brain’s motivation had been affected by this delight, which He was able to help
me produce in my unconscious through his new method.
In my new motivation I
would, from now on, react to it as the delight was connected to two actions: to
obey and to obey quickly.
I would notice that
the quicker I obeyed the more and stronger of this delight. He told me that my
brain already had learned it and now I could just know, He added and smiled.
Yes, I have already
experienced that and understood the connection and enjoyed the delight when I
moved quickly at his order, I thought for myself.
- For you this
reaction is only related to the Master-slave-girl-situation. That means that
you will not obey all people around you, if that is what you are afraid of.
I didn’t answer him. I
hadn’t thought so far into the future, but now I understood that it could be a
risk. As long as I was rewarded in this way I could obey anyone, but then
again, I mustn’t be a public slave-girl.
But I admit that the
thought felt thrilling in some odd way. But, NO!
- That is the reason
for that Micke had ordered you to obey me during this
weekend, other ways it hadn’t worked in the right way. When you obey me it is
merely for your sake and not for mine.
It seemed as he was
anxious to explain to me so I wouldn’t believe that this inexplicable was
hocus-pocus. But even after he explained to me it still felt like magic, a
wonderful magic.
He continued:
- I will try to make
this very simplified. I don’t know how muck you know about the basic
psychology.
Our fantastic brain
can, with many billions operations per second, only focus at one signal at the
time. (Even if splinter in parts of seconds).
You have surely heard about STM (short term memory) and know that it is
only 1 second long and that our sensory memory handles ten times more of the
complete bombardment of impulses in our perception.
That is an old
knowledge, now days we know that it handles enormous much more.
- Surely you have also
heard of and noticed that a woman (normally) can keep many balls in the air at
the time. You have a higher simultaneous capacity when most men are content with one ball at the time.
“He has TWO balls” my
thoughts added but I didn’t dare to say it out loudly.
- The reason is that
she can speed up her focus so that she flashes between different elements in
her attention. It is the attention, what we put in focus, which steer all our
thinking and memory-handling. This is a part of my research work.
There is also a much
more interesting world of unconscious intelligence, in other words, all that
below the conscious. This world is huge.
I got a feeling of
that my brain lived its own life beside me but he explained that the unconscious
cybernetic instead lived parallel with us.
We know, by later and
foremost American research much more about all the subliminal inputs and now
further more about its newly discovered and interesting feedback.
(Hilda): Though I
tried to be attentive and ready to learn, with pen and paper, when he
explained, I understood far from everything. My notes told me that he had
talked about “a image can replace a body-sensation, a
sensation slide over to a feeling, movement, thought or an importance memory”.
Yes, he told me much
more that I can’t report on. But I can give word for my experience and that is
important to me. The road and the technique to get there is not that
interesting for me, but the end station is. There I find the wonderful effects
as I experience in my mind and my body.
Still he continues to
explain and I was proud that thought of me as that intelligent:
- If you see it like
this. When we are a wake we can normally percept 7 thing simultaneously. We can
focus at seven figures, words or sound simultaneously, not more.
-When we play an
instrument, percept sound impulses, lights, tastes we can only deliberately
perceive it with a speed of circa 20 bits information per second.
- In contrast to that
fact we receive by our senses impulses at a speed of more than 10 million bits
per second. All this goes somewhere and it is in this field my research starts.
- It is firstly in the
supra modal area that I had elaborate my research further. I will publish the
results within two – three years. You have just noticed one little side-effect.
But this works at many more fields as well.
I have a personal
interest in the field of submission and that is why I have concentrated on
that. As it advances in small steps I have needed some volunteers to try out
the different steps. You will experience two little steps, the
motivation-effects and the multi-perceptive-process and more to come.
-By influence the
unconscious in the right way I can persuade your brain to handle many more
impulses simultaneously or more rightly, make your attention flash between a
huge amount of sensations in the very same time and with a much trigged up
speed.
I think you have
noticed that?
That is also why I
have concentrated on women for these
tests, as they are predestinated for
this way of handling impulses, but I
will further on develop my method. With
female volunteers I got the existent flash-effect for free.
I’m sure you noticed
that I said “persuade your brain” and not influence. What I do is much closer
to the words; persuade, lead, guide and “hold hands” than influence and
manipulate.
- Well, I know that
I’m a little too much scientist and I know that it is the thousand fold
experience that counts for you.
- The main thing is
that everything happens in your very own brain and mind. I’m just opening the
doors for you and prepare your brain and mind to the effects.
//
- Are you hungry for
little supper?
- No thanks, Master. I
rather don’t eat in the evenings; it’s not good for the body. But if you
ordered me, what can I do?
It felt enormous good
in my body when I said that. I hope that he would order me to eat and I would
do that very obediently, every bite to swallow.
I felt an inner
rewarded for “Master” and my obedient thoughts.
- Okay, then you will
go to bed. I will show your room.
The bed is done and
waiting for you. You must be fagged. I know that it is very tiring with those
exercises. You will have a lot to melt during your sleep and we have a very
long day tomorrow.
He moved to the door,
but noticed that I sat obediently and waited for an order. That obedience was
rewarded.
- Come with me!
- Yes Master!
I run quickly up to
him and followed him into another room and then another. I saw a 120 cm (47 in)
bed with summer flowery cover and with calm colors in green and light green.
A bedside lamp was
switched on.
He also showed me the
guest-toilet and told me to get my suite-case. But there was guest-toothbrush,
toothpaste, soap and a towel.
I felt a little
disappointed. Shouldn’t I, as his slave-girl sleep in His bedroom? But I also
felt calmed. No, disappointed! My next thought was: “Is there something wrong
with me?” and “Does He like my body, doesn’t He want me?”
“Use me!” something in
my stomach added.
I was his slave-girl
and had to assume that he used his right.
- Go to bed and sleep
well. As you see there is no nightdress and you didn’t bring any. It is warm in
here and you don’t need any as soon you are under the cover. Tomorrow you may
sleep as long as you want.
Good night and sleep
well!
- Good night Master
and thank you very much. I will thank you more properly later.
I didn’t really know
what I meant. Should I say thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you?
Or should I offer him
my body?
How could I do
that?
I had to obey any
order from him so it was easy for him to use my body in any way he wanted. I
had nothing more to offer him.
//
ZZZZZZZZ
I woke up thoroughly
rested when the clock was striking nine. I hadn’t heard it before.
My whole mind and body
longed for a fraction of the delight that I had experienced yesterday.
When Rebecca had told
me that the girls were prepared to offer an arm to visit Him, I thought that
she was too drastic. I mean an arm?
Now my mind understood
the depth of what she meant. I could feel it in every little ganglion in my
mind and body, what she meant.
But there was one
thing that tortures my mind. There is a price tag to everything. What would
this heavenly pleasures cost me in the future?
It couldn’t be all for
free, could it? I haven’t been that entire good girl in my life.
Think if Destiny
demands that I give up Master Micke to repay for this
pleasure. Well I’m still too egoistic to give up this pleasure so I had to find
a new Master, even if it hurts. Perhaps if I begged at my bare knees perhaps I
could stay with Him as long as He wanted. He could use me for all His
experiments. I could be the best slave-girl as he ever had had.
Well that last
sentence I didn’t believe in myself. Who was I to compete with those
mega-obedient girls he could create with his power.
Okay, Mrs. Destiny,
I’ll give up Master Micke!
//
After my morning wash
I tried to find my way in the house and passed door after door on my way to the
kitchen. It felt funny to walk around naked in a strange house. Passing windows,
with out of Venetian blinds but the street outside was calm and quiet. He had
told me to be naked so I didn’t care. It was his responsibility. I had to obey.
It felt so wonderful to think so and the most fantastic of all was that I
thought so by myself.
Please let Him adjust
my mind so I could be a real slave-girl with infinitely forced tasks to submit
to.
Suddenly I felt that I
was so happy when I was Mats’s sex-toy and
sperm-releasing-automat and even when he showed my blind obedience to his friends.
And I was prepared for much more…..
In the kitchen He sat
at the same stool and was dressed in a dark blue dressing gown in terry cloth.
- God morning!
- Good morning,
Master!
- Sit at your place.
The breakfast is ready in a minute, coffee or tea?
Obediently I sat down
at the stool and quick as lightning and was immediately rewarded by that
delighting feeling waving through my body.
It works!
The feeling was
light-year from the experience from yesterday, but a presentiment, that promise
me more.
- Thank you Master,
coffee will be good. But I can do it. I’m the slave-girl!
I reminded him.
He laughed a little
chuckling.
- Yes, but you are my
guest now at the Saturday morning. There will be a day tomorrow.
- Yes Master.
- May I ask Master?
- Yes!
- Have you something
better in store for my tomorrow then?
- Nosy Parker! You
will obediently wait and see, what I have in store for you, won’t you?
- Yes Master!
- Well! Have your mind
and body landed after yesterday evening?
- Thank you Master. My
whole body trembles in yearning for what I experienced.
I answered as honestly
as I could.
- You are a bit
egoistic, are you? I had to handle with that as well. Master Micke told me that you want to be a real slave-girl. I can
make you one, but never without your own consent.
- Yes Master. Thank
you Master!
- Do you remember what
I told you yesterday? Now your brain had learned that it will be rewarded by a
splash of that delighting feeling as soon as you obeys
and a bit more when you obey quickly. It works like when you sat down at that
stool. You felt it then?
- OH yes Master. I
remember everything and I’m so thankful. Thank you Master!
One funny thing, it
felt so good to say “Master” to Him. It had felt good to say Master to Mats and
Master Micke as well, but not in the same way, not in
the same league. This was not good it was wonderful!
I wanted to say it as
often as I could. I mean it is such a delight.
- In this little area
there’s more for you, one factor that’s trigging that delight and that is if
you react to an order that is difficult to execute, if you feel resistance to
execute it or if it conflicts with what you think, feel or want and further
more if it is revolting for you. Then
you will experience that delightful kick in parity and as strong as your
resistance.
It’s very interesting.
- Yes Master.
- Note that you have
only take one little step in the direction to the much discussed submission-intoxication. You will
probably meet it during the day or tomorrow.
Will continue
Cecilita