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The tears of Love
By
Clara High
Part Seven
… She awoke and started to prepare herself. About half an hour later she escaped from her room and moved to her company. Her gossip colleague nodded and smiled friendly to her.
you stop to have a finger in every pie? Why are you so interested in Me and My things? Don’t you have your things to worry about?
such selfish not to notice My friends’ problems! I wish only to be useful to you…
Haven’t you a little shame and tact?
how a woman in love is suffering, when it is impossible with her beloved one!
Unterlieutenant sighed sadly.
bad fortune of the man encountered with feeling of sadness, sorrow and pity of him. Despite her disappointment some good emotion for him was still living in her. She decided to go and see him.
area without Her permission!!! You can be degraded in rank or even send to jail!!!
a vacation on Mediterranean but the cards for the resorts are already distributed…
Come to take it after work.
one! I will speak and I will tell you! …
… She was staying at the door. It was in the late afternoon. Sun was too hot. Three men in the enclosed area were on their four as it was ordered. The soldierin on duty unlocked the door and she entered. She was confused. What was she doing here? Why did she come here? What for? He disappointed her. He should be for no interest for her. But some desire was still pushing her to him. She still desired to feel his lips, his power, and his passion. Suddenly he saw her and moved. He almost jumped. Actually he dragged his tired body and ruined in front of her. She felt the nasty stinking from his body covered with dried blood stains. She felt that she is going to vomit, but managed not to. It was awful. She started to think about his lack of fortune. He looked up to her.
was dropping from his broken down lip. He was crying pitifully.
suggestion shocked her. Trying to save his useless life he was not stopping himself at no limits! It was too much for her. Deep anger exploded in her soul. She started to breath heavily. A terrible shouting came from the deep of her being.
You, idiot! For how long I was pursuing you just for one your kiss! A!!!
were falling. He started screaming aufuly.
with you! Now you say, you love Me! No! No! No! – Shouting to him she continued to kick. One kick hit him in groins and he bent as a worm, another hit and broke his down jaw. Few small parts of bone and teeth flew out from his mouth mixed with saliva and blood. From now on he could only be moaning. Cruel pain was preventing him from speaking. His mouth remained grotesquely opened. Miss unterlieutenant was continuing her accusation and torture over him.
- You love Me! Is that’s why you went to the other woman, a? And started to make love with her? You love Me! But you went to live with another woman.
You gave her all what you refused Me!!! And you say now, you love Me! – He was trying to apologize himself somehow, but due to his broken jaw only funny sounds were coming from his mouth. Suddenly a strong hit with the sharp tip of her boot fell into his right eye and it cracked like an egg.
You lie Me now in same way as you were cheating Me before! I realy loved you, but now I hate you! Die! Die!… - she burst in cry. He was squirming on the dusty ground. Only laud moaning was listened from him.
Guards, leaded by a elder a little fat Officerin with Captain’s insignia
rushed in the “Pen”. They took her by her hands and forced her to go out.
ear. – Miss Colonel is waiting for you! In her office! Now!
was so upset due to the last emotional hour she had passed, that was not afraid to report to Madam Commandante at all…
… Having just finished her lunch Sofia was intended to have a short break before to resume her work in the sunny afternoon. She drank some mineral water. Suddenly she heard noise down on the yard. She looked through the window and saw that in the compartment designed for the prisoners sentenced to death a young Officerin was beating mercilessly one of the doomed. Sofia pick up the phone and called the internal duty room…
… Unterlieutenant entered the room. She saw Miss Colonel Sofia Romomela sitting behind her desk. Huge flag of Dorme was hung behind her back. The girl approached with line step, stopped in attention position at about one meter from the desk, picked up her right hand to her peaked cap in salute and reported:
elder woman heaved up her look from the document she was reading and looked at the girl with warm, friendly eyes.
was nervous.
smile. – What was whole that noise about? C’mon!
deeply Sofia. “Innocent naïve girl! To fall in love! Oh! I was at her years when that nincompoop repulsed Me! Oh! Hîw angry, disappointed, sad and wishing to revenge was I then. I wanted him for Myself only, I had illusions that I could subjugate him, but that reach selfish bastard refused My love. I was then young aggressive girl – ambitious and knowing My own cost, so I was determined to have him and his wealth up to the last cent. I wanted to get as higher as possible in society, but the fate made a bad joke with Me. In its time I was even thinking that I love him. Oh! At that time it was not possible for Me to put him in hell for neglecting Me. If it would happen now… Oh! With advance of the new order in Europe, unfortunately, he managed to escape and as far as I had heard he is now somewhere in South America. And now you, my little one, you are paying with your bitter tears for betraying Me and My power. You tried to have that stallion without My permission, but in vain! Oh, dear, I really hope that you have already learned not to challenge your superior Oficerins. Now I will look after his execution! It will be a pleasure. A man, who thinks that his rod is giving him power over us, the women! Oh, My girl! It is time to be compassionate with you”.
group. He was remarkable between his comrades despite his exhaustion and weakness. I desired to be with him, I wished it at once when I saw him for first. He fainted after rebranding and I saw Your brand on his senseless body. I realized that he belongs to You, but I couldn’t overcome Myself. I decided him to be mine after finishing his duties with You. And I started to seek contact with him, but he was always avoiding Me… Ah ahh ahh… Always! Girl burst in lavish tears again. Sofia stood and went to her. She was about twenty years elder. She felt almost Mother’s feeling to that inconsolable cheated crying girl. She took her hand and caressed her.
washing her underwear and kissing it too, My colleagues were laughing over Me, telling Me that they had seen and heard them to make love… - She started to cry stronger. Sofia caressed her head. She was starting to lose her patience. That scene was becoming really boring her. “That stupid girl! What should she think if she knew that actually the baroness is My first cousin. Oh!”
dreaming about his lips! Oh! And today he told Me that he loves Me! – She sobbed – He was doomed to die and asked Me to help him. I, the naïve one, was compassionate with him and was thinking how to came to You and how to beg for his life, when he throw his “I love you!” in My face! Such rough, arrogant, impudent counterfeit liar! – Sparks appeared in Sofia’s eyes for just a part of second. “Naïve, stupid girl! To ask Me for the inferior’s life! Hahh! It is good that you have broken his jaw before he to manage to explain you. The cruelness in which we are bringing you up gives good results!” Sofia looked the girl with look full of care.
stopped to cry and now was only drying with a handkerchief her tears remaining on the cheek. “That is much better!” Sofia said to herself.
without cheating us. A man never can be loyal to one woman only… What to do! It is good that now We, the Women have total control over them and the life in the society at all! Only our hard hand can hold their low instincts in suppression and to conduct them in the useful direction for the society. That man, whom you have trusted and who cheated you, he is really useless. How and why had you fallen in love with him I wonder, but never mind! If you want him to be punished, he will be! I am already tired and bored by him. He disappointed Me. Among us, he is so weak and incapable. I am not satisfied by him! So is doomed anyway! If I am to follow My own wishes, I would send him to the shooting ground to face shooting squad immediately. Tell Me, child, do you feel yourself really so insulted by him?
Thrust in the good in a man!
forgive him? We are human beings; We must forgive each other’s mistakes. So?
prisoner. Like a girl, what do you feel… Could you?
- Oh! I liked him and he insulted Me harshly… He must apologize to Me seriously to make Me to feel pity on him and to forgive him…
“Small stupid naïve child!” Sofia laughed in herself! All that sense comedy was amusing her and was giving joy to her cruel heart.
will tell him about you and your feelings. I will order our doctors to take care of him. But he will not be taken out from the dead men compartment. If he decided to apologize to you he would have to call duty soldierin and to show two fingers up like “Victory”. We know he can’t talk. That option will be valid until the last minute, until the platoon’s commandress issues the last command. Agree? But, please, don’t go to the area any more. You will suffer and he could think that you press him. Remember, child! Men are stubborn and proud beings. Despite all our efforts, it is still difficult for us to break exactly these two their disadvantages. OK? Agree?
promise! – The girl looked at Sofia with widely opened eyes full of tears and hope. At that minute she was feeling her like Mother.
“Soon, very soon, I will not be able to recognize in you the hesitating, hurt girl… Very soon you… “ …
… Sofia and the young officerin went out from Commandature. Unterlieutenant saluted her commandress and Colonel replied in same way. They separated each other and Colonel Romomela went to “The pen” as she had promised. Unterlieutenant was now free and sat on a bench under the nearest threes. It was calm nice shadow there. She saw the stir around Sofia, the saluting, rushing of the guards to serve the Commandante. She saw that Sofia entered the enclosed area and approached the group of the men. They knelt in obedient poses immediately when Madam entered. She saw that the woman knelt in front of one of them and started to talk. She was seeing movement and nodding of both. From that distance she couldn’t hear anything. But they both were talking, at least Madam Romomela was. Madam stood up and went out from the area. In about a minute she passed near the bench of unterlieutenant. The young woman stood up and saluted. Madam Colonel saluted back, smiled friendly, nodded affirmatively and pronounced:
- He is advised. Now we have to wait. – And she passed on her way further. The girl’s heart climbed up in her throat. Hope, mixed with slight panic and anxiety overcame her soul. Will he make the sign or not, shall he apologize to her for all he had caused? Yes, for sure… She loves him and he says that loves her. So, he will… Oh! But when, when!!? The hope rised from the dead like a Phoenix from the ash… It was so painful to her to wait, but she was ready. Oh, but why he has to wait? Why he didn’t react immediately and use his chance to go out from the dead men area? Why? Is he stubborn, stupid or what? “Now we have to wait”, Madam had said. Have to wait for what? Why? What has he to think about? Oh! These men! Who can understand them with their stupid pride? Come on, dear show two fingers! Come on! After that I will take care about you.
Seven days to the last point. Oh! Don’t wait! Unterlieutenant went to her rooms with heavy heart…
… Colonel Sofia Romomela entered the enclosed area. With great pleasure she noticed that the dead men knelt in obedient pose immediately. She smiled ironically. “Good! At the end of their useless existence they finally learned something! Ha ha ha! We, the women always had been good teachers!”
She looked over the men knelt in front of her. “Such dirty, miserable garbage! Today few more will join them after a week they will be about fifty, or even a hundred! Here, the space will be like in sheep pen! Stinking and noisy! After that…” She started to talk.
- Prisoners! Listen carefully! As Lady Commandante here, I have right to have mercy on the sentenced ones! So, due to My typical female weakness, I want to give you a chance! To all of you! The life of one of you will be spared! Do you understand My words? – All men nodded affirmatively.
let you choice how to do it! You are free to kiss the ground, to eat dust, to drink pie, to kneel, to bent yourself, to bow, to shout words of glory to the sky, to do whatever you think that is good. Any signs with fingers are strictly prohibited. All other things are allowed. It is up to you. Your efforts will be observed and assessed by Me and the guards soldierins! We will put marks. At the end the one with highest sume of marks will be the chosen! Do you understand Me?
see My kindness, therefore I will ask you – do you agree? Are you content with My decision?
moaning of Boris and saw his bowing, the only possible for him ways to express his gratefulness.
disgust. “Such nasty boring comedy!” She called the Officerin responsible for the guardesses on duty around “The Pig pen”.
prohibited range area except the guard soldierins on duty! Any contacts with the men inside are strictly prohibited. Violators will go under tribunal. Food and water to be given in the determined way! I expect the doomed will start some stupid things, because of despair, but you don’t worry. Follow standard procedures!
Miss Romomela saw unterlieutenant and approached the bench. The young woman stood up and saluted her. Sofia replied back and said:
expressions of the emotions on the girl’s face. It was obvious that the girl is excited. “Poor, naïve girl! Oh! You really love that inferior… Very soon… very, very soon…”
… In next few days Unterlieutenant was witnessing very strange show. The men in the “Pen” were performing all thinkable and unthinkable dances, acts and vocal performances trying to attract the women passing by and to deserve some attention. “What are they doing? What for? Why?” She was wondering. She was watching from a distance how the doomed men were proceeding like animals. The women passing near by were spitting and peeing over them, shooting them with air rifles with light rubber bullets, humiliating them in all ways which were coming in their brains. Boris was in worst possible position. He was not able to sing and to recite due to his broken jaw. He was feeling severe pain on each his movement. By secret order of Sofia Romomela, camp’s Chief Medical Officer, a woman in her fifties, had processed his jaw wounds in way preventing the correct knitting together and causing him pain difficult to sustain. “One sign, just one “V” with your fingers…” she was thinking, “Nothing else is necessary!”. New doomed med were coming into the “Pen” every day and the troupe was constantly increasing in size. The girl wished so much to go there and to speak with him, to press him, to argue with him, and eventually to make him to beg for forgiveness, but she remembered the advices of Sofia and the promise which was given to her. Expectation was making her suffering, the hope that tomorrow he will stop to play stupid and will show the sign and all will finish was making that suffering more and more deep and painful. “Today nothing, as well!” she was telling to her self at the end of each day. “Did he show it tonight?” she was asking herself at every morning. Nothing was happening, only her sadness and inconvenience were gradually increasing. She became nervous and irritable. She got in scandal with few her colleagues just for nothing. Sofia was observing all this from beside with hidden satisfaction. „A little bit more, My dear, just a little bit more…”
sadness. The girl didn’t know how to accept the question – like friend’s interest or like ironical nagging and reacted aggressively.
- she shouted out of herself by anger. She blushed whole in red and started to breath heavily. The other woman responded roughly.
- Ha! Little bitch! Do you know that everyone here is laughing over you! You are s funny with your Love with this animal! Look at her! Lover! Hah! Did you find your happiness with him, dear? A? Ha ha! How many times have I helped you to satisfy your caprices? And now you are shouting at Me! I had five men since your idiot has come! I am happy, I had stormy love with everyone, My rooms are clear and arranged, they worked for Me with devotion, now I have full comfort, I am fully served! What do you have? Nothing! Nothing!!! Tomorrow he will die! And you! You will remain alone and unhappy again! Miserable wretch! Look at him! He doesn’t care for you at all!
- Aaaaa! – the girl screamed and jumped full of anger and hate over the other woman. Rain of fists fell over her colleague. A few women appeared from their rooms, attracted by the noise. They separated them. The girl rushed into her room and fell on the bed whole in bitter tears and sobbing…
…She heard knocking on the door.
and reported.
was unmeaning. Her eyes were just looking at the girl and were not expressing anything. The girls dressed her quickly, put some lipstick and looked at the soldierin. They moved out…
… The girl entered in the room. Sofia was sitting in the armchair dressed with her bath wrapper. A nicely formed turban was covering her head. A white cosmetic mask was put on her face. Cucumber slices were put over her eyelids. The room was full of heavy thick smell of perfumes and creams. The air was warm and wet full of water vapors. Obviously Madam Romomela had just taken a bath. The atmosphere of that late surprising meeting was so surprising for the girl. She was staying at the door hesitating whether to come closer or not.
Colonel was not seeing her. Her feeling of fear, inconvenience and insecurity got deeper. She approached the chair. On about two meters from Madam Sofia she stopped.
dead heart. She sank in the soft embrace of the armchair. That increased her feeling that she was completely in the hands of the woman sitting near to her. She felt that something unavoidable was to come and she couldn’t escape it in any way. She gave up and was only waiting for the circumstances to develop.
Madam Romomela took down the cucumbers slices and looked at her with smile. The girl smiled back sidle.
scarecrow for you. – Sofia looked at her simultaneously with joke and severity in the eyes.
feel?
surprising for her. Did the time come? Already? And still no sign for him! Why? Why he is so stubborn. Her heart was pulsing hard.
look strong in front of her superior Lady Officer. Sofia understood everything.
girl’s internal soul wound. The girl burst out in tears and sobbing.
men, despite it is caused by such nice feeling as falling in love. I want you to face the real man, object of your feelings. You can go and visit him into pen if you wish. You can even speak with him if you want, despite I don’t see how should he response you. I beg you just to take him separated from the other worms while you are talkin. They don’t deserve any attention! OK?
She rushed out drying her tears. Sofia took up the phone…
… The girl was looking at him. In the moment she got in he started his ridiculous dance in front of her accompanied with impossible sounds of low. She was disgusted.
Her love feeling started to change to anger and hate. He froze in front of her. He was looking at her with eyes full of tears, fear and despair. “Oh he is so pity and miserable!” Suddenly she felt that her passion to him started to disappear and scorn and disgust started to grow up I her soul. She showed patience.
from his wounded mouth. The pity human ruin was familiar with everything, but his stubbornness was so strong!
He was trying to say something. She approached him. Heavy disgusting smell of putrefied flesh enveloped her. She stepped back and vomited. “Horror! What would I have done! Ahh! How did I fell in love with this…” Another spasm caused second vomit. The love, the last remaining of which had still living deep in her, made her to try one more final attempt to change something.
spared? - Another affirmative low.
He started to make his grotesque dancing movements again. She was totally surprised and ruined. “I am trying to save his life, but he is playing stupid games with Me. For him I am a pity stupid girl. OK! That is it! All is over!” She turned back and rushed to the door.
dares!!! A man speaks without permission!” She turned to the voice. Boris was on the ground whole in tears and bloody saliva, but she didn’t even notice him. Another man was staying up in front of her. The other men were collected themselves in a mass and were lying on the ground looking down.
tongue! You forget yourself! This is an example for you, stupid stubborn stinking scumbags! – And she took out her pistol, aimed and pulled the trigger.
Man’s head exploded. A hole appeared in the middle of his face, which only remained almost intact. Whole other part of the head burst out. Part of bones, brain flesh and drops of blood spread around. Some of them hit the lying men. Nobody even moved. Man’s body stood up for few seconds and after that ruined into the mud. Unterlieutenant turned and moved to the door. Two armed women led by a Lady Officer with Captain’s rank was running against her. Seeing the scene and realizing that the situation is safe the Officer stopped the soldierins and called two prisoners to drag the body to the crematorium…
…Sofia was whole in hot sweat. Convulsions of her body were provoking the girl to continue her caresses. Her tongue was working diligently. She was experiencing these emotions, caresses and feelings for first. With time her appetite to the game was arising. The elder woman was showing obvious signs of pleasure. Their bodies were dancing a passionate wild dance. Madam was strongly curving her body and time to time trembling. The girl was feeling hot. The universe was turning in unbelievable rhythm. The hands of Sofia were slightly and gently touching the girl, leading her in right directions to the expected pleasure. Madam was panting with passion. Suddenly she came to herself and slightly pushed the girl away. Sofia kissed her and went to next room. Few minutes later she came back. The girl glanced at her and made huge eyes by surprise. Large strapon was fixed on her superior officer’s waist…
released herself back on the bed…
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