Therapy
by Harold
"And how does that make you feel, Bob?"
"It used to make me angry, Ann, but now I just ignore it."
"Bob, it would be better if you addressed me as Dr. Culver. Therapy is more
effective if you take it seriously. A casual approach isn't good for either of
us."
"That's fine by me. Henceforth you may call me Mr. Canfield."
"If you wish, but I've found using first names puts a patient more at ease."
"I'm not a patient, I'm a customer. I'll go along with whichever you prefer,
formal or informal, but not both. You choose and I'll do whatever you do. If
you'd rather, you can call me Mr. Baxter."
"Mr. Baxter? Why? That's not your name."
"Do you know that for certain?" I was at the therapist's. It was not going
well. Dr. Ann Culver would not have been my choice as a therapist, but since
she was the only one on my insurance company's list, she had been chosen for me.
Nevertheless, I would persevere. After the way the insurance company had jerked
us around when Meg was sick, I would be content if all I accomplished was to
cost them a bunch of money.
"Your insurance company referred you as Mr. Canfield. If you're not Mr.
Canfield, we have a problem."
"I'm the person the insurance company knows as Mr. Canfield. You seem to have
some problem calling me Mr. Canfield, so I thought maybe you'd like Mr. Baxter
better."
"Bob...Mr. Canfield, I think we'll make more progress if we return to the
issue at hand."
"I agree, Ann...Dr. Culver."
"Alright. Let's see if we can summarize where we are. Your wife, Meg, died
about a year and a half ago. You haven't been able to establish a successful
relationship with another woman. You need to achieve closure with respect to
Meg and you also have some issues with women you need to confront. This
probably relates to issues of self esteem. You haven't managed to deal
successfully with the grieving process."
"I'm also not dealing successfully with the buzz word process. Otherwise,
you're fairly accurate on the basic premise, but you've made some assumptions
and drawn some conclusions that are off base. I think you should hold off on
those until you've gathered more data. I would also take issue with your self
esteem comment. My self esteem is doing just fine."
"I think you're confusing self esteem with ego."
"I'd say there's a very fine line between the two, if any. Regardless, both
my ego and my self esteem are quite healthy."
"Rather than debate that, let's move on. Do you blame your wife for having
abandoned you?"
"I do feel abandoned. I'm not sure I blame anyone. She had cancer, she died.
It wasn't anyone's fault. I suppose I could blame her--or the doctors or God or
the blue meanies. It won't bring her back."
"It's hard to tell from your response whether you've got your feelings of loss
under control or you just aren't ready to deal with them yet. I'm sure we'll
clarify that as we go on. Let's talk about your relationships since then."
"Well, first there was Jane..."
"She was the one who was Meg's friend."
"Right. It became obvious pretty quickly that we couldn't build the type of
thing either of us was looking for. We're still friends and we talk once in a
while, but with Meg out of the picture, we don't have much common interest.
Then there was Helen..."
"She was the palm reader?"
"Right. But that was purely recreational for both of us. We're friends and
talk fairly often. Rebecca was more of a contest than a relationship."
"What do you mean by that?"
I told Ann...Dr. Culver...about my encounters with Rebecca. The first time in
her office, when I'd surprised her by giving her a spanking instead of having
sex with her, the second time when I'd invited her to my house and then
frightened her away with the help of Sharon, my housekeeper, and then described
my final encounter in detail. Dr. Ann (I would continue to call her Dr. Culver
as long as she called me Mr. Canfield, but I thought of her as Dr. Ann) seemed
taken aback by my description of these events, especially the dessert metaphor.
"So you turned sex with Rebecca into a sort of symbolic cannibalism."
"Yeah, I'd go along with that viewpoint."
"And how did it make you feel?"
"It was one of the more memorable evenings of my life. It affected me in ways
that I still don't understand."
"I find it a rather disturbing metaphor. It suggests you view women as a
commodity to be consumed."
"You're a Catholic, aren't you?"
"I used to be. Why?"
"Then you've engaged in your share of symbolic cannibalism. Did you consider
Jesus a consumable commodity?"
"It's not the same thing."
"I agree. I was with a real flesh and blood person. No transubstantiation
necessary. Do you really want to debate which is more disturbing?"
"Let's move on."
"Right. Karen was the one I was really trying to build something with. I
just couldn't seem to make it work. I don't know whether it was too soon,
whether I just wasn't ready yet, or what. After my final encounter with
Rebecca, Karen and I slowly drifted apart and soon it was obvious to both of us
that we weren't going to make it. This is the one that troubles me. With the
others I wasn't really trying. I was just getting laid. But with Karen, I
tried and failed. I really liked her and as an added extra bonus, she really
liked being tied up."
"And you liked tying her up? Let's talk about that."
"Fine. I love talking about that. Most of them were reluctant to be tied up,
especially Sharon..."
"Sharon? You mean your housekeeper?"
"Yes, but I'll get to her in a minute. The point I was trying to make is that
for me it's quite a turn on to tie up a woman who's reluctant. You take her
someplace she hasn't been before and require her to surrender herself completely
to you. It's a wonderful gift that she gives you. But with Karen, there was no
reluctance. She loved to be bound. She loved the feeling of helplessness.
Sometimes I'd do things to make her reluctant. On one occasion I took her out
in public with her hands tied behind her. Other times I'd let her know I was
going to spank her after she was bound. It created such a delightful discord.
She would want to be bound, but be apprehensive about what came after. The
anticipation as I would tie her wrists behind her was just too delicious for
words."
"Whose anticipation? Hers or yours?"
"Both."
"I see. And what about Sharon?"
"She's gone now, too. She used to clean the house on Saturday. When she
finished, I would tie her hands behind her and we would inspect the house. If I
found fault with her work, I would spank her. Then, either way, take her to
bed. Sunday morning, I would untie her, fix her breakfast and send her home."
"You kept her bound all night?"
"Usually."
"And what happened to her?"
"She met someone. I think she got tired of waiting for me."
"Waiting for you to what?"
"Marry her."
"Perhaps she wanted a more conventional relationship."
"Perhaps, but I doubt it. I wouldn't be surprised to learn she still has rope
marks on her wrists some mornings, but it doesn't matter. It's none of my
business now."
"Sounds like wistful thinking."
"Perhaps. As I said, it doesn't matter."
"So you've tied up and spanked every one of these women except Helen."
"Wrong. Jane was the only one I didn't spank, but she did get tied up."
"I see. And was Helen reluctant?"
"Less so than average."
"Oh?"
"I called her up and invited her to my house. She came right over."
"And did she know what you had planned for her?"
"Definitely. I told her that if she came over I would tie her up and spank
her, then fuck her brains out. As I said, she showed up promptly."
"So you think all women would like to be tied up and spanked?"
"I think a minority of women really enjoy the idea of being tied up and
spanked. However, I think the majority of women can be tied up and spanked by
the right person under the right circumstances and would enjoy it in that
limited context."
"That's what you think?"
"Yes. What about yourself? How would you feel about a little bondage and a
nice sound spanking?"
"Let's leave me out of this."
"Okay," was what I said, but the thought that ran through my head was: "Wrong
answer, doc. You're next." It wasn't what she said so much as the way she said
it. There was just a hint of alarm in her voice and she leaned away from me as
she said it. The predator in me took note.
This was my second session with Dr. Ann. The pattern was already clear.
These sessions would be a struggle for control between Ann and myself. Having
been in small business all my life, this kind of petty crap usually pissed me
off. It was such a waste when there were things that needed doing and never
enough people or resources to do them. But this was different. For some
reason, I enjoyed it. Maybe therapy would help me answer that one.
"Let's make something clear. If we're going to effectively deal with these
sorts of feelings, you're going to have to ignore the fact that I'm a woman."
"Fine. Let's make something else clear. When you say 'deal with' these sorts
of feelings, I suspect you mean eradicate or cure. I'm not interested in being
cured. That's not why I'm here. I like myself the way I am. I'm used to it,
comfortable. Tying up women turns me on. I don't want to change that."
"So why are you here?"
"I'm here to solve a specific problem. I don't want to be cured of anything.
I have a very limited set of objectives. I want to get over Meg in order to
make room in my life for someone new. That's not to say I want to forget Meg; I
couldn't, ever. It's just that she's not here and I am. I need some help
adjusting to that state of affairs."
"But you've got to deal with these feelings you have toward women. You can't
establish a healthy relationship while you feel this need to control and punish
women."
"Why not? It worked fine with Meg."
"You mean...?"
"I'm sorry. I thought I'd brought that out. I had such a relationship with
Meg. We were very happy for twenty plus years. Raised two kids, built a
business. The whole bondage thing was purely sexual. It wasn't allowed to
affect real life. We solved our real problems through discussion,
understanding, and love like reasonable people. She was only ever tied up in
the context of sex. I felt like I'd failed if she didn't enjoy the experience."
The timer went off. "Well, Bob, it looks like our time is up for today.
We'll continue with this next time."
"Alright, Ann. See you then." I could tell from her expression that she was
annoyed with herself for forgetting and calling me Bob. She was also annoyed
with me for rubbing it in.
Although the session had given me a couple of things to think about, I
suspected Ann had even more to think about. I had a feeling she didn't have
very many customers who insisted on full participation in the process. Most of
them probably thought they were getting something out of their weekly dose of
jargon.
A couple of days later I got a call from Helen. "Hi, Bob. Helen. What are
you doing Tuesday night?"
"Nothing until now. What are we doing?"
"You're taking me out. There's something you just have to see."
"Are you going to tell me what?"
"No, but you'll love it. Trust me."
"Trust you, huh."
"Yes, really. Pick me up about 8:00. It doesn't start until 10:00, but we'll
need to be there early to get in."
Tuesday I picked Helen up at her house. She directed me to a bar called the
Silver Slipper. I'd been there. Ted, the owner, was an occasional customer.
I'd visited him the first time he'd called us, as I did with all new customers.
It had been early in the afternoon and he wasn't open yet. He'd served me a
beer and we'd talked for a bit. I'd liked the guy and we'd gotten on well,
although I hadn't seen him since.
"Helen, the sign says ladies night. You're taking me to see a male stripper.
Now that I think of it, I'm probably not going to see a male stripper, since
most places don't let guys in on ladies night."
"Bob, trust me."
We went around to the back and in through the delivery entrance. Ted was
inside.
"Hi, Helen. This the guy?...Hey, I know you, you're the guy from the delivery
company...Bob, that's it. Bob."
"Good memory." It had been a couple of years.
"It helps in my line of work."
"Where do you want us?" asked Helen.
"I'm going to put you back in the booth with Brad, the sound guy. You'll be
out of sight there, but the view is pretty good. I've had to be more careful
lately about letting guys in."
We bought a couple of drinks and went back and met Brad. His booth was built
up against the rear wall, higher than the stage so that his lights would have a
clear shot over the audience. I still didn't know what was going on or why I
was here. It was close to 9:00 and Brad started to get busy. We left him alone
so he could work.
At 9:00, the music started and Brad put a spot on the stage. There was a guy
there who started dancing slowly and shedding clothes. He was actually pretty
good, but there was sort of a dark tone to his performance that I didn't quite
understand, although it was artfully created. I enjoyed his performance, but my
interest was purely cerebral.
"Helen, you did bring me to see a male stripper. What's the deal?"
"Just wait. Trust me."
"Fortunately for you, I don't have anything else to do at the moment."
The guy finished his routine about 9:30. The waitress who took care of Brad
brought us some more drinks. I was still perplexed.
"Helen, are we ready to go? The guy was good, but I'm hopelessly
heterosexual. Not anything I can help, you understand. Just born that way."
Helen was immune to my sarcasm. "Bob, I said trust me. By 10:15, I won't be
able to drag you out of here."
I shut up. The truth was, I did trust Helen. She wasn't above fucking with
my head, but I could tell there was something more to this than was apparent at
the moment. I sat and drank my drink. Brad was aware of my confusion and just
grinned. There was definitely something going on. Helen grinned.
I looked around. The place was full to the brim with women. A couple of them
appeared to be wearing collars. Intriguing. They were all yakking at high
speed and the din was incredible.
At 10:00 the lights went out and a thunderclap issued from the speakers. The
din ceased so suddenly and completely I felt like I'd lost my breath. A spot
appeared on the stage. Standing in the spot was a guy in a tight black outfit
with boots, cape, and mask. Zorro? Not quite. No sword or Zorro hat, although
he did carry a quirt. I thought this guy must be a hell of a dancer to get
those boots off gracefully.
As the music picked up tempo, the guy strode around the stage, dangling a pair
of handcuffs from one finger and looking the crowd over. Then he leapt from the
stage. He turned a somersault in midair and landed among the audience. He
strolled about, pausing often at one table or another. He seemed to be
inspecting women. A couple of times, he had one stand up, positioned her just
so, then circled her, examining. Then he would move on. This went on for ten
minutes or more, but neither I nor anyone else was bored.
Finally, he came to a decision. He returned to the second woman who had
received a standing inspection. He asked her name. She had trouble getting it
out, but finally managed to gasp, "Linda." He pulled her to her feet, then drew
her arms behind her and locked handcuffs on her wrists. This was followed by a
leather collar around her neck. He snapped a leash on the collar and led her
toward the stage. I sat there dumbfounded.
Zorro (the guy wasn't Zorro, but I needed to call him something and Zorro
would do) positioned Linda at the front of the stage in the spotlight. He
corrected her posture, then danced around a bit. He unbuttoned her blouse.
After a bit more dancing around, he unlocked her handcuffs, then slid her blouse
off her shoulders. Now, wearing only bra and collar above the waist, he led her
to the pole in the center of the stage. He pulled her arms overhead and locked
her wrists in a pair of manacles that were fastened to the pole.
Zorro danced about a bit more, leaving Linda standing chained to the pole and
looking somewhat dazed. He seized an ankle and tossed one of her shoes aside,
then removed her other one. He unhooked her skirt and slid it down her legs and
off. After each article of clothing was removed, he would dance about,
occasionally prodding Linda with his quirt to make her squirm, emphasizing her
increasing exposure.
Linda was now standing chained to the pole in bra, panties, and stockings. He
fastened a chain to each ankle. Zorro danced up to her again and unhooked her
bra, exposing her breasts to the crowd. Linda squirmed some more. Then Zorro
pulled out a knife and slashed her bra straps, casting the garment aside. He
danced away again. Linda blushed furiously. Then he was back. He slashed her
panties, pulling them from her. Linda stood nude except for her stockings.
Zorro danced away again, leaving Linda on display. Linda blushed even more and
struggled with her chains in a vain attempt to cover herself. She had no chance
of doing so and I think she knew it. It seemed to be a reflex action. Even
though it was utterly useless, she seemed unable to refrain from struggling.
She tried to cross her legs, but the chains on her ankles prevented it. Zorro
danced about the stage, leaving Linda to cope with her predicament. He might as
well have taken a nap. No one was watching him.
After a while, Zorro returned and removed her chains. In a way, I was glad it
was over. I had been sitting on my hands. If I touched my crotch, I would
explode, and it was all I could do to keep from doing so. I was glad we were in
the dark. Even so, my discomfort didn't go unnoticed. Brad looked over and
grinned. Helen grinned.
It wasn't over. Zorro was chaining Linda to the pole again, this time facing
it with her back to the audience. He chained her ankles as well. Then he
spanked her. I shoved my hands harder under my butt. Linda yelped and
struggled. I moaned. Helen elbowed me in the ribs. "Shhh!"
Zorro took Linda down and wrapped her in a big fluffy robe. He scooped her up
in his arms, carried her to the front of the stage, and bowed. The crowd went
nuts. I thought they'd been noisy before. I jerked my hands out from under my
butt and clapped them over my ears. Brad grinned. Helen was shrieking with the
rest of them.
Zorro carried Linda back to her seat, kissed her hand, and did something to
her collar that I couldn't see. I thought he was removing it, but when he took
his hands away, it remained and something shiny dangled from the ring.
Linda sat for a few minutes in a daze, then collected her clothes (one of the
waitresses had left them in a small basket next to her chair) and headed for the
ladies room. Most of the crowd went with her.
As soon as they thinned out, I slipped off inconspicuously to the men's room.
Despite sitting on my hands, I had been unable to contain myself. I cleaned up
and returned to Helen. She burst into laughter at the sheepish look on my face.
I couldn't believe what I had just seen. "Helen, I...Helen, that was...it
was..."
Helen giggled. I don't think she'd ever seen me at a loss for words before.
I tried to figure out just what it was I'd seen. I assumed it was fake, that
Linda was part of the act, but I'd bet any amount of money that blush had been
real.
"Helen, that was all part of the show wasn't it? Linda, I mean. She was
Zorro's partner or assistant or whatever."
"No. She was just one of the customers. Nobody knows who he's going to
pick."
"You mean he just roams around and randomly picks some woman and does all that
to her?"
"That's it exactly."
"Oh, man. You mean he just picks any woman? And she goes with him?"
"You saw it."
I was going to have to sit on my hands again. I think I was in a bigger daze
than Linda had been.
"But Helen, why would she...why would they...I mean, they all went crazy...the
place is jammed...he stripped her in public...anyone could be...I don't get it."
Helen laughed again.
Linda returned to her table. She was fully dressed, but still wore the
collar. This time I got a better look. There was a small padlock locked to the
ring.
"Helen, she still has the collar on."
"It's customary. She'll wear it home. You'll see girls who come to the club
in a collar. If she has a padlock on it, it means she's a previous 'victim'.
It's quite a status symbol."
I pointed to a girl at a nearby table. "You mean that girl over there has
been..."
"Yes. That lock on her collar means she was selected on one occasion or
another."
"Really? Her? I'm sorry I missed that. Helen, you realize that you have
zero chance of making it home unmolested."
"I'm off tomorrow. Do your worst."
"This must be some kind of payback for the tricks I played on Karen and
Rebecca."
"You can look at it that way if you want."
"We're leaving now." I wrapped my hand around Helen's wrist and dragged her
toward the door. As soon as I got Helen outside, I tied her hands behind her
and made her ride home that way. When I got her home, I tied her down, spanked
her, fucked her. She was obviously as aroused as I was by what we'd seen.
Unfortunately, I felt like my performance was somewhat less than she would have
hoped for. As turned on as I had been by Zorro's show, it had also left me
rather drained. Besides being low on energy, I lacked the flair Zorro had
exhibited. I could learn a thing or two from that guy.
In the morning, I took Helen back to her house on my way to work.
That evening, I gave Helen a call. "Damn it, Helen. I can't decide whether
to thank you or curse you. I've been a total space cadet all day. I might as
well have stayed home from work. On the other hand, I wouldn't have missed it
for the world. Where did you hear about that?"
"One of my students took me one night. I immediately thought of you, so I made
friends with Ted and arranged to get you in."
"I owe you one. That was the most amazing thing I've ever seen."
"I could tell you were quite affected."
"But so were you. That's what I don't understand. I know why I liked it, but
what do women see in it?"
"I'm not sure I can explain, but I'll try. You're sitting there and that guy
starts roaming the room. The idea that he might choose you just turns your mind
to mush. You noticed how quiet it is when he's making the rounds. Every woman
in the room is a total zombie. And if he stops at your table, you go into panic
overload. Your heart starts pounding so hard you're sure it's going to explode,
your mouth gets dry, your hands are shaking, you hardly know your own name.
It's truly incredible. I don't know of any drugs that'll give you a rush like
that. You saw how dazed Linda was through the whole thing. The rest of us
weren't much better off."
"So that explains the pandemonium when it's over. The sudden release of all
that pent up tension."
"Exactly. It reminds me of an early Beatles concert. He gets you all worked
up, then you just scream and yell and let it all go. It's ever so much fun."
"Do they provide earplugs?"
I was fascinated by Helen's comments. I knew from personal experience that
women could have that sort of effect on men, but I'd never truly realized that
women could be similarly affected, especially en masse. It was an amazing
psychological phenomenon. Someone should study it. I knew just the person.
"So, Mr. Canfield, where were we when we quit last time?"
It was my weekly meeting with Dr. Ann. It was apparently very important to
her to be addressed as Dr. Culver, since she was being careful to behave in such
a way as to produce that result. I wondered if she was capable of appreciating
my little behavior modification experiment.
"Well, Dr. Culver, we were discussing the fact that I was able to have a
reasonably normal relationship with Meg, my deceased wife, despite the fact that
I regularly tied her up and spanked her."
"I still don't see how you can have a truly equal relationship on such a
basis."
"That's because you're only looking at one aspect of the relationship. The
fact that I was dominant sexually did not automatically make me dominant in any
other domain. We both had our areas of dominance and expertise. Something as
complicated as a marriage, especially with children and a business involved,
requires a lot of love and cooperation. The fact that she got tied up and
spanked didn't make her less than a full partner. Nothing took place, and that
includes sexual activities, in which she wasn't an equal and willing
participant. I should also point out that sexual dominance of that type carries
with it the responsibility to see the your partner's pleasure. I took that
responsibility seriously."
"I think I see what you mean, but it still doesn't seem right. I don't see
how someone could surrender herself like that."
"Hey, don't knock it if you haven't tried it."
"Mr. Canfield, I thought I made it clear that this discussion was not to
involve me personally."
"Back off, doc. The remark was rhetorical, not personal. I find it
disturbing that you chose to take it personally. If you keep that up, we're
going to get confused about which of us is the therapist."
"Yes, you're right. I apologize. Please continue."
I changed the subject. It was easy to do with Dr. Ann. She tended to be
intuitive rather than logical. Jumping from one topic to another came natural
to her. This gave me a major advantage. I could change the subject whenever I
chose and she'd go along, but if I wanted to stay on a subject, I would pursue
it relentlessly and she would, perforce, follow along. The result was that I
was in charge of the agenda for our discussions.
There was one other thing that was interesting. My remark had been
rhetorical, but it was far from random. I was probing for a reaction and had
gotten one. She'd nearly had a fit when I'd suggested, even tangentially, that
she try it. I'd backed her down easily enough, but her reaction had left a
monster blip on my radar.
I kept the rest of the session focused on matters of no consequence. I told
her some stuff about my childhood and early dating experiences, but stayed away
from anything to do with bondage.
That evening I gave Helen a call. "Hi, Helen. It's Bob."
"So it is. What's up?"
"How would you like to go in for therapy?"
"Are you nuts? I'm a better counselor than 90% of the therapists out there."
"I know that. That's why you're perfect for this job."
"I see. You need my help with one of your little jokes."
"Quick on the uptake, as always."
"So what are you up to?"
"You have this personal problem that you need some help in resolving..."
I explained what I had in mind to Helen. She thought it was hilarious and
agreed to help. I told her I'd pay the tab if her insurance didn't cover it.
"One other thing," I told her. "She knows I've been involved with someone
named Helen. It might be a good idea to go by your middle name."
"Helen is my middle name, Bob."
"And your first name?"
"Blanche."
"I see. Well, perhaps Blanche should seek Dr. Ann's assistance."
About ten days later, Helen called me.
"Well, I had my first meeting with Dr. Ann."
"What did you think?"
"She's nice enough. Well intentioned, takes her work seriously. Wants to do
good. One odd little thing. After she called me Blanche, I called her Ann.
She didn't object. We're on a first name basis."
"Odd. Well, I'm kind of pushy with her. I'm probably not her favorite
client."
"I think it's more than that. I think men in general frighten her. She keeps
her distance."
"Interesting. I knew you'd see things that went over my head. So how did she
react to your little problem?"
"She seemed both fascinated and horrified. I told her I'd always had
fantasies of being dominated sexually and lately I'd become fascinated with
thoughts of being spanked. She listened quite intently. She also mentioned in
passing that she had another patient with similar issues."
"She mentioned me?"
"No. She wouldn't even reveal the gender of her other patient, but then late
in the session she mentioned it was interesting to hear about these issues from
a woman's perspective, thereby revealing your gender. She's ethical, but
doesn't always connect all the dots."
"Anything else of interest?"
"Not really. This was just an introductory encounter. She did seem somewhat
vehement in her assurances that we would expunge these embarrassing and
degrading desires from my psyche."
"Not exactly a live and let live approach, huh."
"Far from it. I think we've definitely rung the bell that makes her
salivate."
"Good work, Dr. Pavlov. Now for a bit of rat running."
"Not immediately. It will take me a couple of sessions to bring her to that
point, but we'll get there. She's not hard to read."
"Mr. Canfield, I've been thinking about your case, and I really feel we need
to address these problems you have with women if we're going to make any
progress."
It was my weekly session with Dr. Ann. She was showing more initiative than
usual, wanting to impose her own goals on my therapy. Apparently, my
introduction of 'Blanche' into her stable of clients had backfired. She was
determined not only to cure Blanche of her problem, she was going to cure me of
Blanche's problem.
"Dr. Culver, with all due respect, I think I've made it clear that I don't
consider my 'problem' with women to be a problem, and that I have no interest in
being 'cured' of these tendencies."
"I'm aware of the limited goals you've set for yourself, but I think a more
systemic approach is called for. I don't see how you can reach these limited
goals without addressing your overall attitudes toward women."
"Okay. I can see the validity of that approach," I lied. "Give it a shot."
I didn't really think she had any chance of having a real impact on what were
some of my more deep seated feelings, but I was amused by the irony of humoring
her delusions of adequacy.
"Wonderful. Why don't you tell me about how these feelings came about."
"I don't know where they came from."
"Well, then why don't you tell me about when you first became aware of them."
Dr. Ann had suddenly launched herself into the analysis of feelings that had
previously been taboo, and done so with enthusiasm. It made me wonder. Was she
really interested in curing me of my problem, or had she been provided with an
excuse for a clinical exploration of feelings that had always frightened her? I
couldn't tell. Maybe Helen would have some thoughts.
I let Dr. Ann lead me around through my past for the rest of the session,
searching for clues to the seeds of my perversion, as she now clearly thought of
it. I went along for the ride and mostly answered her questions honestly,
simply because there was no reason to do otherwise. On a couple of occasions, I
fabricated answers to provide her with things she clearly wanted to hear. She
was delighted and told me what wonderful progress we were making. Perhaps Dr.
Ann's newfound dedication to my salvation was a blessing in disguise. Dr. Ann
was happily pretending to be gainfully employed, we were costing the insurance
company a bunch of money, and I was amusing myself by admiring her legs,
imagining how nice they would look with a few feet of rope wrapped tightly
around her ankles. A good time was had by all.
A couple of days later, I talked to Helen again. I told her of Dr. Ann's
crusade to cure me and she told me Blanche's problem was being pursued with
equal zeal. Dr. Ann had been informed that Blanche had always had these
feelings, but that they had been inflamed recently when she had visited a bar
that featured a male stripper.
"Dr. Ann says I'm making wonderful progress," Helen informed me.
"That's great news. And after only two sessions. I am likewise making
wonderful progress now that we're focusing in on what Dr. Ann has decided is the
real problem."
"We should celebrate."
"We will, but not until Dr. Ann joins the party. How soon?"
"She's nosing around the bait now. She's a bit confused about how seeing a
male stripper causes me to want to be spanked. I told her he has that affect on
everyone. She got this weird look on her face and changed the subject."
"Do you think you scared her off?"
"No, but she was clearly disturbed by the idea. I'll give her a week to stew,
then set the hook."
"Anything I can do in the meantime?"
Helen considered a moment. "No...Yes, there is. Encourage her. My job will
be easier if she thinks she's being successful in treating you. If she feels
she's having a real impact on your problem, she's more likely to take on the
bigger one I'm going to present her with."
"Got it. I'm certain I see the error of my ways."
At my next meeting with Dr. Ann, I told her I'd done some thinking about our
conversations, and I wanted to explore more conventional relationships. Dr. Ann
just glowed. She enthused about how much more satisfying I would find a truly
equal relationship. While she jabbered on, I looked around for the barf bags.
Not seeing any, I turned my attention to her legs again. It was good that I
found them so distracting. She was making me angry. The implication of her
comments was to disparage my relationship with Meg. Despite our bedroom games,
Meg and I had had an equal relationship and Meg was nobody's patsy. She didn't
let anyone push her around. I was surprised that Dr. Ann was so insensitive in
this regard, but as Helen had pointed out, she just didn't connect all the dots.
That evening I called Helen. "Okay, Helen. Your turn."
"How did it go?"
"I told her I was convinced and wanted to seek out a normal relationship."
"She bought it?"
"She could hardly control herself. She just beamed. I thought I was going to
get radiation burns. Late in the session, she slipped up and addressed me as
Bob. I let her get away with it."
"The fact that she did it means she's letting her guard down. This should be
pretty easy."
"Go for it."
Two days later, Helen called me at work. She had just left Dr. Ann's.
"Done," she announced.
"She went for it?"
"Hook, line, and sinker. The rat is in the maze."
"So tell me what happened."
"I told her how much she had helped me, how I was beginning to come to terms
with my lack of self esteem and that I deserved something better than abuse..."
"Radiation burns?"
"Third degree. Then I zinged her. I told her I'd been out with the girls,
and we'd been to ladies night again. The feelings had come back stronger than
ever. When I'd gotten home, I'd called my boyfriend and tried to get him to
spank me."
"That's a bit heavy handed. She fell for that?"
"Of course she fell for that. I was offering her a chance to rescue me. Dr.
Ann does not look a gift horse in the mouth."
"So then what?"
"She said I should stay away from ladies night. I told her it wasn't that
easy. Everybody went there, and besides, it had the same effect on everybody.
A couple of weeks ago, Debbie had talked her husband into giving her a spanking
and he'd liked it so much he spanks her all the time now."
"I can't believe even she didn't see through all this."
"Trust me, Bob. I know what I'm doing. Now she gets to rescue everybody. I
told her I didn't understand why this was happening and suggested she come to
ladies night with me. Someone with her training could figure it out. When I
left, she was busily girding herself to enter the lion's den."
"Oh, Helen, you have no idea how badly I want to go along on this one."
"I can imagine, but as you yourself pointed out, it won't work."
"I know that. I can't be at the table with her, and barring that, there's not
much point. But that doesn't keep me from wanting it. Call me when you get
home. I don't care if it's three in the morning. I probably won't sleep
anyway."
"Okay, okay, you'll hear from me."
Tuesday night, I tried to relax, but couldn't. I paced around the house, sat
by the phone, paced some more. It occurred to me that I was letting myself get
very worked up over this. This was almost as bad as the night Helen had taken
me to the club. I wondered why. Part of it, of course, was the fact that I
didn't have much else to do. Other than my business, there wasn't a lot going
on in my life. Perhaps this was my feeble attempt to get a life. I knew it was
more than that. I was having a great time conspiring with Helen. She had been
right when she pointed out that we weren't meant to be lovers, but she made a
great friend, and since neither of us had anything else going on at the moment,
a little recreational sex was nice also. But it wasn't just Helen. I knew what
it was. I had spent entirely too much time staring at Dr. Ann's legs, and she
had cast her spell on me. I really didn't think we were compatible, but it
didn't matter. I wanted her--badly. All my crap about finding the right
person, having a real relationship, replacing what I had had with Meg...What I
really wanted was to wind some rope around Dr. Ann's slender limbs, spank her
til she screamed, and fuck her til I died. Thank you, Dr. Ann, for putting me
in touch with my true feelings.
These thoughts did not interrupt my pacing. I'd tried to read, watch TV, any
number of things. My concentration was zilch. It was midnight. Zorro would
have finished over an hour ago. What was happening? Maybe something went
wrong. Maybe I should have gone. Maybe...
The phone rang. "Hello," I nearly shouted.
"Bob, calm down."
"How'd it go?"
"It went fine."
"So tell me about it."
"You really are in a state. Sit down and relax, I can hear you pacing."
"Sorry. Go ahead."
"Okay. We got there a little before nine and took a small table about in the
middle. At nine, Gary, he's the first guy--you saw him--started his act. Dr.
Ann kept up a running commentary of psychological goonbabble through the whole
thing. Repression, projection, sublimation, a whole litany of crap. She was
feeling smug and superior. After Gary finished, like you, she asked me what the
big deal was. I told her the next one was the big deal. By the time Zorro
started..."
"By the way, what's Zorro's really called?"
"Nobody knows. He doesn't use a stage name and nobody knows who he is.
Everybody calls him Zorro for the same reason you did."
"Really."
"Anyway, by the time it was time for Zorro to start, Dr. Ann had a couple of
drinks in her and was more relaxed. She perked up when the lights went out and
it got quiet, then jumped when the thunderbolt happened and Zorro appeared. She
started up her commentary again, going on about the mask and the outfit, but
backed off a bit when he pulled out the handcuffs. When he leapt off the stage,
she shut up in mid-sentence and I didn't hear another peep out of her the whole
time. He did his usual tour of the room. He didn't stop at our table, but he
paused at the table behind us. He tilted a girl's face up and looked into her
eyes, then moved on. Dr. Ann just gaped. He really is a commanding presence,
what with the mask and the cape and the way his voice rumbles over the PA. Like
everyone else, she couldn't take her eyes off him. The woman he finally chose
was at the next table. It couldn't have been better. It happened three feet
from her. The woman he chose was named Susan. He made Susan stand and locked
her hands behind her, then put her collar on her, leashed her, and led her away.
I swear Dr. Ann's eyes were going to pop out of her head."
"Anyway, Zorro did his usual routine with Susan chained her up, stripped her.
Then when he spanked her, I thought Dr. Ann was going to faint. The color
drained from her face and she started gasping. I couldn't decide if it was an
orgasm or a stroke, although I think an orgasm would have put color into her
face rather than taking it out. After that she just sat there and twitched
occasionally. I actually was sort of worried about her."
"Repression will do that to you."
"Don't you start with that crap. After he took his bow, the usual pandemonium
erupted. I was screaming with the rest of them, but Dr. Ann just sat and
stared. Anyway, Zorro carried Susan back to her chair. He knelt down on one
knee and put her shoes back on her. It was very elegant and sexy the way he did
it. Then he kissed her hand and was gone. This all happened right under Dr.
Ann's nose. It was perfect."
"So then what?"
"The lights came back up, and Susan went off to get dressed. Dr. Ann finally
came out of her coma and said, 'we have to leave' so we left. When we got to
the car, she said, 'that was very disturbing...very disturbing' and didn't say
anything else until we got to her house."
"You think she was put off by it?"
"Yes and no. I'll guarantee she was as moist as the rest of us. That's part
of what disturbed her. When we got to her house, we sat out front and talked
for a bit. She wanted to know why I hadn't told her the real nature of the
stripper act. I told her it was customary not to."
"Huh?"
"It's true, Bob. It's considered very bad form to tell anyone what's coming.
The first time you see it is so amazing, you'd be pissed if someone had spoiled
it for you. Even if you've seen it a bunch of times, it still has quite an
impact, but the first time is special. One of the fun things is to bring
unsuspecting friends and enjoy their reaction. It's sort of like reliving the
first time."
"So bringing their friends is what keeps women coming back?"
"That's not the only thing. It's worth seeing more than once on its own
merits. Wouldn't you like to see it again?"
"Absolutely."
"Then, of course, there's the chance that you'll be chosen. Once you know
what's coming, it sets your heart pounding if he comes anywhere near you. Many
women go back for that."
"I see what you mean."
"Anyway, Dr. Ann seemed to accept the reasoning. I told her that now she knew
why everyone wanted to be spanked. She just groaned and said this would set
feminism back a hundred years. I told her it wouldn't. It's erotic to have a
strong man take charge of you like that. It's sexy, it's fun, and it doesn't
diminish you as a person. Who wants to be on top and in charge all the time?
It's nice once in a while to be made to feel fragile and feminine. She just
groaned again."
"Then what."
"I walked her to her door. I wasn't completely sure she would find it on her
own. She invited me in, but I declined. I had a feeling she might want some
privacy and for that matter I wanted some myself. I drove home."
"So what's your overall assessment?"
"She put it quite succinctly. She was very disturbed. There's only one way
you can be affected by Zorro's performance. The problem is how she'll react to
being affected like that."
"What do you think she'll do?"
"I don't know. She'll be embarrassed by her reaction. She won't admit that
she liked it, that it turned her on. She'll have quite a dilemma. I suspect
Dr. Ann will go through the whole catalog of defense mechanisms: denial,
repression, sublimation, etc. But she's smart enough to recognize what she's
doing. She still won't give in. I predict she'll settle on
intellectualization. She can pretend she's being detached and professional,
thereby avoid dealing with her true feelings. Besides, she already does plenty
of that. It works for her."
"Do you think she'll go for the next one?"
"I think so, but I'm not sure. You'll see her before I do. Your
appointment's tomorrow."
"I guess we'll know more then. I do want to thank you, Helen. There was no
doing this without you."
"And thank you. I'm having a ball. I've always wanted to work out on one of
these over- educated dingbats. I really am enjoying myself. Call me after your
appointment."
"Talk to you then."
After I hung up, I thought some more about what Helen had said. I wanted to
prepare myself for my appointment tomorrow, but finally had to admit there was
no way. I was going to have to play it by ear.
"Good morning, Mr. Canfield. Where did we leave off last time?"
Dr. Ann was formal and distant. I tried to draw her out, but got nowhere.
The whole hour was a total waste. To top it off, she'd worn a pant suit and I
was denied my usual pastime. She'd crawled into her shell and wouldn't come out
to play. Maybe Helen would have better luck on Friday.
I called Helen that evening and told her about my session with Dr. Ann. She
wasn't surprised.
"I didn't expect she'd open up to a man after last night. I'll see if I can
put a few cracks in her shell on Friday. You couldn't let on that you knew, but
she'll have to discuss it with me; there's no other possible topic. Besides,
she'll have a couple extra days to calm down."
"Keep me posted."
I was on tenterhooks waiting for Helen's call Friday evening. I really did
need to get a life.
Friday afternoon Helen called and suggested we go out for a drink. I told her
we might as well make it dinner. I picked her up after work. We discussed her
session with Dr. Ann as we ate.
"Did you get her to talk?" I asked.
"I certainly did. She was ready and I pulled a complete role reversal.
Today, I was the therapist. I'm better at it than she is, you know."
"I know, but she's the one with the piece of paper."
"Disgusting, isn't it."
"Truly."
"I told her she was going to have to face her feelings. I was right about
her. She is frightened of men. Actually, she's not frightened of men, she's
frightened by how men make her feel. She's scared of her own feelings, but
transferred that fear to a fear of men in general and it's a big problem for
her. Being a psychologist allows her to intellectualize everything and keep
both men and her feelings at a distance. Needless to say, Zorro was a major
overload for her circuits."
"Sounds like she's shorted out."
"No question. Shields penetrated. I told her exactly what she was
doing--used all the clinical terminology, rubbed her nose in it."
"How did she take it?"
"She had to admit I was right. I laid it all out for her and she was
cornered. I told her she had to face up to her feelings. She had to go back to
that club. That was the only way to deal with it."
"You're so evil."
"I know. It's such fun. I think I'll send her a bill for today's session."
"You think she'll go?"
"Yes, I think so. She was worried about if she got chosen. I asked so what
if she did? Someone with her education should be able to deal with it. That
was hitting her where she lives. She's got a lot of identity invested in that
Ph.D. Even so, she turned sort of green, so I pointed out there were probably
more than two hundred women there. Her chances were less than a half percent.
That calmed her down. She understands math."
"Sounds like it's time for the meeting with Ted."
"Set it up as soon as you can. I'll try to have her there the Tuesday after
next."
We talked about other things. I enjoyed my evening with Helen. She was fun.
We were very different, but often arrived at the same conclusions, although by
different routes. We had dessert and an after dinner drink and I drove her
home.
When we got to her house, she invited me in. She was still feeling the
effects of her Tuesday evening with Zorro. I went in.
Early Saturday afternoon, I dropped by the club and had a chat with Ted. I
told him what was up and he set up a meeting for me with Zorro. He told me the
guy's real name was Dave, but I was not under any circumstances to reveal that
information. Their agreement was that Dave was in charge of choosing the women
and I would have to convince him. I wasn't pleased with having to jump through
this extra hoop. I had assumed that since Ted was the owner, he would simply
instruct Dave as to his wishes. It didn't work that way. I would talk to Dave
on Tuesday. I decided to take Helen with me.
Dave didn't like our idea.
"Look, I appreciate that you came to see me," he said, "but there's no way.
You have no idea how many people come to me, wanting me to choose a best friend
on her birthday or a girlfriend or ex-wife. If it got out that the show was
rigged in advance, not only would they stop coming, they'd scratch my eyes out
and rip my face off. The whole reason it works is because it really can be any
one of them. I don't even know who I'll choose until I get out there and start
looking around."
"Your point is well taken, and I understand the problem, but let me see if we
can make a case for an exception. The person we have in mind is a PhD. in
psychology. She's been here once already to study your act. She'll be back
next Tuesday. She feels you represent a major threat to feminism and to her own
self esteem. Her goal is to negate the effect you have on the women in your
audience."
"This is a joke, isn't it."
"They're serious," Ted chimed in. He had been hovering in the background.
"Can she really do that?"
"I don't know. How bad do you want to find out?"
"Even if I chose her, wouldn't that have the opposite effect?"
"No. I think it would put her in touch with her true feelings. The whole
point of her campaign is to allow her to continue suppressing her real feelings
and to justify doing so."
"Sounds like weird behavior for a psychologist."
"Unfortunately, it's typical. Way too many of them put themselves in the
position of the pot calling the kettle black."
"So who is she?"
"Her name is Dr. Ann Culver. She was here last week with Helen."
"I remember you," Dave said to Helen. "You were at the table next to Susan.
Was she the woman who was with you?"
"That was her."
"Yes, I recall. Nice legs. She struck me as a bit goosy; that was why I
didn't approach her table."
"You're right about that."
"That's a problem."
"How so?"
"My selections aren't entirely random. I'm looking for the right type of
person. A woman who's too eager would blow the mood I'm trying to set. I want
someone who's reluctant but willing, but with the emphasis on reluctant. That
actually covers the majority, but she has to be in that range. The worst case
is one who's terrified of the whole thing. I give each woman a bail out phrase
as I lead her to the stage. If she uses the phrase, it's over. There's no way
I'll keep a woman chained to that pole against her will. But if I screw up and
choose a woman who uses the phrase after I've got her up there, then the evening
is a total disaster, and that's my problem with your Dr. Culver. She didn't
strike me as someone who would go the whole course."
"Yeah, I see what you mean," I said.
"Don't worry," said Helen. "I'll make sure it's a point of pride with her to
deal with whatever happens. A real woman wouldn't cut and run. She would deal
with it."
"How will you do that without letting her know she'll be chosen?"
"Trust me, Dave."
"Trust her," I told Dave.
"Yeah, trust her," said Ted.
"Alright, I'll do it, but I'd rather choose you."
Helen paled a bit. Dave and I both laughed.
The next morning was my weekly session with Dr. Ann. She was nearly back to
normal. I continued trying to convince her of the wonderful progress I was
making. As we talked, she absent mindedly slipped one of her shoes off. I took
this as an indication that she was even more relaxed than I had thought.
"She takes her shoes off all the time."
"Really?" I was having my evening conversation with Helen.
"Yeah, both of them."
"This is the first time she's done anything like that when I was there."
"About half way through my first session she had her shoes off. It was one of
her little habits that I noticed. It goes along with the formality she insists
on with you. I think she finds you intimidating. Combine the formality and the
shoes thing, and I'd say she's very uptight around you."
"Well, she always struck me as being pretty uptight. I assumed she was always
like that."
"Not around me."
"Interesting. Well, Friday's your day. You've got to convince her to go with
you on Tuesday."
"Bob, trust me."
"Okay, okay, I trust you."
Friday evening I took Helen to dinner again.
"Done deal. She's going with me Tuesday."
"You think she'll cope?"
"I'd almost guarantee it."
"How'd you do it?"
"I asked her how she could pretend to help me with my problem when the same
problem turned her into a quivering mass of jelly."
"Brutal."
"Necessary. She has no concept of what it's really like to be a woman. She'd
like it if she'd try it. She's way overdue for shock treatment."
"How did she react?"
"She admitted I'm right. She's making wonderful progress." We both burst out
laughing.
"She knows I'm right," Helen continued. "She's determined to beat this thing.
She has to save herself in order to be able to save everybody else. I think
she's ready."
I was in the sound booth with Brad. He seemed surprised to see me, but didn't
comment. It was a few minutes before nine and he was setting up for Gary's act.
I watched as Helen entered with Dr. Ann. They sat at a table in the center.
A waitress brought them their drinks just as Gary was starting. Helen ordered
more drinks as soon as Gary finished. Dr. Ann gulped hers down and ordered
another. I hoped she wasn't going to overdo it. It was busy, and her third
drink didn't come until nearly ten.
The lights went out, the noise stopped, the thunderbolt issued from the
speakers, and there was Zorro, standing in the spotlight. He strode back and
forth across the stage, dangling the handcuffs like before. Then he leapt into
the crowd.
Zorro started at the far side and wandered all the way across the room, just
looking. He didn't stop. On the way back, he started making contact. He
stopped at a table, took a girl's head in his hands, and looked into her eyes.
He did it again at another table. At a table in the back, he made a woman stand
and examined her rather thoroughly, even lifting the hem of her skirt with his
quirt to get a better look at her legs. He moved on. At another table, he
looked another woman in the eye, and moved on. Then he was at Helen and Dr.
Ann's table. He placed his quirt under Helen's chin, tilting her face toward
his. He took her chin between his thumb and forefinger, moving her head to
either side, brushing her hair aside with his other hand.
"Oh, Jesus, he's going to do Helen," I thought. I looked at Dr. Ann. She sat
frozen.
Zorro continued his examination of Helen. Then he turned to Dr. Ann.
"Stand up," he told her.
Dr. Ann stood.
"Clasp you hands behind your head."
Slowly, Dr. Ann complied.
"Stand straight. Feet together."
Dr. Ann stiffened. Zorro lifted the hem of her dress to mid thigh. Dr. Ann
remained rigid. He stepped close and looked deep into her eyes. She leaned
away.
"Don't move," he commanded. He placed his quirt in the middle of her back and
moved her back into position. He circled her, then looked into her eyes again.
This time she didn't move. Then he was gone. Dr. Ann remained in place. Helen
said something to her and she sat down.
Zorro did two more standing inspections and stopped at several other tables
just to make contact. He didn't give anyone else quite as thorough an
examination as he had Dr. Ann. I was pretty sure he was testing her to see if
she'd make it all the way through. Apparently she passed. He was standing in
front of Dr. Ann.
"I choose you, wench. Tell me your name."
"Doc...Ann, I'm Ann."
"Doctor, is it?" he said as he took her hand and pulled her to her feet.
"Well, Dr. Ann, as soon as we get you prepared, I'll escort you to the
examination room. Please place your hands behind you."
Dr. Ann didn't move.
"Do it now, Dr. Ann," his voice thundered over the PA.
Dr. Ann slowly placed one hand behind her, then the other. Zorro locked the
cuffs on her wrists. Dr. Ann shuddered and tugged at the cuffs. They held
fast. Zorro took her by the shoulders and turned her to face him. He produced
a collar from within his cape. Dr. Ann's eyes were locked on the collar as he
opened it and held it to her throat.
"Tilt your head back, Dr." Dr. Ann complied and Zorro buckled the collar
around her neck. He snapped a leash on the collar.
"Follow me, Dr. Ann" He set off toward the stage. Dr. Ann stumbled along
behind, pulled by the leash.
Zorro positioned Dr. Ann at the front of the stage. She was required to stand
perfectly straight and look straight ahead. He was unimpressed with her first
attempt at posture.
"I said straight, Dr.," as he smacked her on the butt with his quirt. Dr. Ann
yelped and stood even straighter. Zorro circled her, inspecting. Dr. Ann
remained rigid, something she was good at.
"Time to take your temperature, Dr. Open your mouth." Dr. Ann did as she was
told. Zorro inserted a gloved finger into her mouth. Dr. Ann's eyes widened at
the symbolic act of penetration.
Zorro withdrew his finger and began unbuttoning her blouse. Dr. Ann jerked at
her cuffs.
"Hold still," Zorro commanded and she subsided. He finished with the buttons
and stepped away. Her blouse fell open and Zorro pushed the two halves to the
side, revealing her bra. He danced around, then returned and lifted her skirt
with his quirt. Dr. Ann shuddered again, but didn't otherwise move. Zorro
unlocked her handcuffs and made her stand with her hands at her sides. He took
first one hand and then the other and unbuttoned the cuffs of her blouse. Then,
stepping behind her, he pulled her blouse off her shoulders and down her arms.
Dr. Ann started to raise her hands, apparently to cover herself, but Zorro
blocked them with his quirt.
"I'll tell you when you can raise your arms." He turned Dr. Ann away from the
crowd, led her to the pole, and backed her up against it. "Now raise your
arms." Dr. Ann raised her arms about level with her ears. Zorro pulled one arm
up straight and locked a manacle on her wrist, then did the same with the other.
Dr. Ann stood against the pole with her arms chained overhead. Zorro danced
away, leaving Dr. Ann to assess her new condition. She tugged briefly at each
manacle, testing them, then stood frozen in place. Zorro returned. He knelt
and wrapped his hand around Dr. Ann's ankle, then removed her shoe and tossed it
aside. He took her other shoe. Without her heels for elevation, Dr. Ann's body
was pulled taut by the manacles. Once again, she remained frozen in place.
Zorro was dancing about the stage. When he returned, he unbuttoned her skirt
and let if fall. With his quirt, he directed Dr. Ann to move her feet as he
pulled the skirt away. After another trip around the stage, Zorro locked a
chain on each of Dr. Ann's ankles so that they were now held about six inches
apart. Then he reached behind her and unhooked her bra. Zorro pulled out his
knife and held it up at eye level. Dr. Ann still stood frozen, but her eyes
tracked the knife as it was passed back and forth in front of her. She shrank
against the pole. Then he sliced her bra straps and let it fall away. Zorro
danced away again and Dr. Ann stood with her breasts exposed to the crowd. She
started to squirm. Zorro gave her a few minutes to get used to her exposure,
then returned and cut her panties away. Dr. Ann moaned, closed her eyes, and
turned her head away. Zorro cupped her chin in his hand and turned her head
back to face him.
"Look at me, Dr. I'm looking at you. Look at me." Dr. Ann opened her eyes
and whimpered. "You're beautiful, Dr. You have no cause to be embarrassed."
Zorro stepped away and Dr. Ann cast her eyes down, but didn't move her head.
Zorro was right. Dr. Ann was beautiful. She stood chained to the pole, naked
except for her stockings. Zorro left her there for ten minutes or more, then
returned and released her. Dr. Ann whimpered again as he turned her to face the
pole and once again locked her in her chains. Although she undoubtedly knew
what was coming, she yelped loudly when the first blow of Zorro's quirt landed.
She was not being spanked hard, but Dr. Ann yelped and pulled at her chains with
each blow. Zorro paused once to see if she was really in distress, but she
apparently didn't exercise her option to use the bail out phrase. Zorro resumed
her spanking and Dr. Ann put on quite a show, yelping and struggling. At last,
Zorro desisted. He unlocked her chains and turned her to face the audience.
Tears were streaming down her face. Zorro wrapped her in the big fluffy robe
and cradled her in his arms. He stepped to the front of the stage and took his
customary bow and the audience exploded in their customary pandemonium.
Zorro set Dr. Ann gently in her chair, then put her shoes back on her. He
stood before her and locked a small padlock on her collar. Then he took her
hand. As he bent to kiss her hand, he said, "Thank you, Dr. It's been an
honor." Then he was gone.
Dr. Ann, tears still flowing, looked about at the screaming women. Then she
joined them. She screamed and stamped her feet and pounded the table. After a
bit, both she and they subsided. Helen gathered Dr. Ann's things and led her to
the ladies room. Most of the crowd joined them.
When Dr. Ann finally returned to her table, she was once again fully dressed
and seemed more in possession of herself, although she still wore her collar.
Her table was empty. Helen had not yet returned. She sat for a few minutes,
but still no Helen. Finally, she went looking for Helen. Unable to find Helen
inside, she went outside to look. I was waiting for her.
"Hello, Dr."
"What are you doing here?"
"Waiting for you. I want you to come with me."
She nodded and without speaking, followed me. I helped her into my car.
As I started the engine, she asked, "Where are you taking me?"
"Home. For now, you belong to me."
"Alright."
I led her up my front walk and into the entry hall. She didn't resist when I
pulled her arms behind her and bound her wrists with a length of rope. I turned
her around, pulled her to me, and kissed her. Shyly, she kissed me back.
"Dr., listen to me."
"Ann, it's just Ann."
"Ann, listen to me. In a moment, we're going upstairs. When we get there,
I'm going to take away your clothes, tie you up tightly, and spank you til you
scream, then make love to you all night. If you want to leave, say so now."
"Do it to me," she said. "Do it all."
I carried her upstairs. Dr. Ann was making wonderful progress.
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